Offsprings of zazabInxz and souLchild

Jazz's Prefect Boot Camp 30-31 December 2011

2011-12-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

J & K Birthday Bash 2011!

2011-02-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

Double Anugerah Day ~ Hari Anugerah Cemerlang J & Hari Ihtifal K. Kebetulan? Rezeki :o)

2010-12-10T11:13:00.001+08:00

Lagi~lagi Kyra

2010-12-02T14:38:00.001+08:00

Just an update for this budak kecik yg sangat terlebih gula, bijak dan hyper~

Kes Rasuah in order tak menangis duduk umah Mama Ruby [her last few days]

Ni pun bribery case ya jangan tak tau!
"Kalau nak gi umah Mama Ruby bagi adik pakai baju dancing kakak dulu!"
the next day I ended up sorokkan baju tuh hahaha~

Merajuk, can't remember why. Merajuk pun rupa cam model, saper nak marah??

Observe the food. That's rendang, serunding and roti. She loves them all. Anak Minang Sejati.

Jazzy haz Gmail & FB

2010-11-30T11:40:00.003+08:00

Mommie n Jazzy's cuti sekolah project ~ get Jazzy all IT savvy and also Solat savvy :o)

I created her gmail n fb ~ jazzy.adreanna@gmail.com and http://www.facebook.com/jazzy.adreanna

ChombIezm!

2010-11-09T11:42:00.001+08:00

Presenting my 3rd Baby, the latest addition to our family. A present from Bubbah after y 3rd miscrariage... Si Pengubat hati yg lara :o)

Hallooo~ Cayer ChombIe ... anak baru Mommie & Bubbah!!

Belum apa-apa dah buat percubaan commit suicide? hehe~

Cayang kakaknya....

Cayang kakaknya lagik....

Kakaknya Mintak Pujik....

Mommienya pulak mintak pujikk~

ChombIe asal kena urut suker terjelepok camtuhh~

Tengok, terjelepok~

terjelepok lagik~ manja nak mampus hehe~

Walaupun Bubbah tak kasik, Ommie tetap gatal bagi salad kat ChombIe, ChombIe's fav is salad n carrot

ni kena tukar nama kot, Terjelepokz~

Abehla baju Nenek Mummy tu kena kakai!

Kyra into Kindie!

2010-10-17T00:33:00.038+08:00

Kyra enrolled into Tadika Aliff Ceria under the Little Caliph's Programme beginning previous Thursday sebab Mama Ruby dah uzur... tak larat jaga budak ganaz cam Kyra hehe. Kyra ku ini ropanya sahaja feminine ye puan puan, tapi tomboy masya Allah.

Mula-mula bangun tidur kemain happy nak sekolah, siap bertudung, posing semua. Turun kereta ok lagi... sekali masuk beratur, REBEH AIR MATO EH~ haha~ enjoy d pix people!

Muka Froggie, her fav post, hehe~ this is her 1st Passport pix

Comel je hehe~ Siap pakai anak tudung lagi :op~

Mula-mula memang seronok je nak sekolah hehe tengok tanduk lebam lebam kat kening tuh, ganaz~!

Anak Omie dah besar... :`o(

Posing.... jangan tak posing, show off bag n uniform sukan :o)

Minum susu kerana terpaksa "Malu kawan nampak la Omie!"

Omie tak sempat tutup pintu dia dah jauh berjalan sendirik

2nd day pun main jalan je sendiri~

Her first assembly...

Dah... rebeh dah nak turun, hehe~

Jeng jeng jeng...! Ni la rambut Kyra yang panjang mengurai :o))

Suka dia je main sorang-sorang kat kelas orang lain semua tgh beratur hehe~

Her fav activity at shool, buli cekgu. hehe~

Raya 2010 Post 02

2010-09-30T03:20:00.001+08:00

This picture was taken during De Bella HQ's open house Aidilfitri. Very the kebetulan, Ain came to the majlis, I did noticed Adam's & Ain's resemblance from Rina's pix but I didn't put 2 & 2 together at first until Ain tegur... silly me kan hehe sorry Ain :op~

This is my Kyra, and my buddy Rinaidil & his wife Ain's Adam. They were playing together [along with Jazzy & Ateem] like the place is all theirs, suara diorang berdua paling kuat. Little did they know that their Ayah & Omie has been good friends since so long [God its been years, i think like 10??] and kebetulan they were born in the same year, only 4 months apart :o)

Maybe the family is meant to be friends forever? :o)

By the way, I really tabik la Ain, Adam punyalah lasak masya Allah :op~ so I really saw Adam in action that day hahaha selama ni Aunty dengar citer je Adam! Kyra pulak bila dah ada gang, dia macam agak kureng lasak, maybe sebab dia amazed, finally ada jugak ropanya manusia yang parah dari perangai aku hahaha~ Tapi adatla Cik Kyra, itu boboy, awak tu girl, yang nak lasak-lasak macam boy kenapa???

Ni boleh buat bakal menantu ni Ain, Rina *wink*

Raya 2010 Post 01

2010-09-29T03:31:00.000+08:00

This is actually masa raya kedua hehe~ Theme Blue dat day. Just before bertolak ke umah Nek Lang @ BTHO & Kampung Semonyeh [Semenyih]

Nampak macam dah besar sangat Jazzy masa ni... time flies :o(

Ramai gelak tengok gambar ni hehe diorang visit Graveyard macam visit Playland :op~

Tempat bersemadinya Hajah Siti Rohana Idris

Nenda in Memory

Roses from me for U... Nenda.

Jazzy... dengan Unyang Sawiyah Paduka Intan

Extra Mischievous, Extra Curious, Extra Bravious!

2010-09-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

Inilah akibatnya bila takmoh mendengar cakap ibu bapa. Orang dah kata, orang pompuan takdek janggut, toksah usik whutever dat's not yours, tak..... nakkkkkk jugak usik. Ha amek kau.

Dulu dah berjahit, ni nasib baik tak dalam sangat. Isk.... Kyra, kyra! kalau dah tiba-tiba senyap tu, harus pegi check, she's definitely up to sumthing!

My girl, My legatee.

2010-06-26T04:07:00.002+08:00

This girl right here, is an inheritor of my achievements in school. She is now following my footsteps to always be the #1 [and cry when we lose].

Honestly, Jazzy is a natural. I didn't pushed her hard on studies-matters [i think] and she is also very independent. I need not to membebel about homework. Most of the time when I asked "Ada homework tak today?" the answer bukannya "Ada" but it's "Dah siap dah Omie".

Jazzy's class was reshuffled earlier before the exams. She was frustrated learning that her post as a Class Monitor couldn't be resumed in her new class [as it was taken by the existing class monitor], 1 Brilliant which is the first class in the shuffle. So when she got 1st in class this time around, it really means Jazzy's the best standard 1 girl in her school. My hope is this position remains till she reaches standard 6, be the school's best girl and she could go to SBP like I did. I've even voiced this hope to my mother, and she agreed that Jazzy is capable of coping with the hostel's life.

Jazzy, my life started all-so-well like yours, but I spoiled it during my adolescence years. Jazzy, do not make mistakes too early in life like I did. Yes, to err is human but if the mistake is avoidable, it is our responsibility as a good Muslim to avoid it. I hope, if U continue to be a genius, U'll hold ur head high, keep ur dignity and retain ur pride. Be a good girl, and continue to be a good lady. I might not be around forever, but this is my hope on you, my amanat.

Jazzy... HFMD :o( [worst thing, It was our 8th Wedding Anniversary.

2010-05-18T12:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday 17th May 2010. 8 years after me n Babah tied d knot.

It began with complains of sakit kaki after her exams in d morning. then sakit tangan. I didn't ignore, but gave a look, one look it just looked like normal rashes. Then she keeps on merengek rengek, well its a bit normal for Jazzy, tapi bila tengok rashes makin banyak n dekat tangan n kaki je, I was alarmed. HMFD was the first thing came to mind. Showed to Nenek Butik, she was a bit worried but tried to console everyone by saying maybe it's just Cacar.

I called Babah. Babah suruh bawak gi clinic. Tapi butik ada sorang staff je siang... I had to wait for Hazirah, our part-timer.

By 5pm she was already restless. Still payfull but restless. I dah tak tahan dah, mama memang dari tadi suruh balik takyahlah suruh Hazirah but despite that both of us knew I needed to be there, business reasons. 5.30 pm, Babah kata jom pegi Az Zahrah, aku pun melompat kemas barang and angkut everyone to Az Zahrah [Kyra ikut ke Butik semalam].

The doc in Az Zahrah didn't say much. But he does looked taken aback. He asked "Sejak bila ni?" I said "Tadi lepas exam" he said "Oh dia pergi sekolah tadi? Mungkin dari situ." Straight forward I asked, "Isn't that HFMD?". Maybe doctor ni tak biasa dengan mak-bapak yg banyak mulut and sangat prihatin tentang ubat-ubatan dan penyakit, dia kata "U're a very observant mother, but I cant say anything yet sebab dia tak demam. But maybe yes, I am not saying no"

It was our anniversary, so despite the tense, we still went to SOHO for a simple anniversary dinner. Jazzy didn't share anything with anyone else [usually Kyra].

Sampai umah I checked her mouth, intuitively. My motherly instinct was right, ada a few ulcers and Jazzy cringe masa nak bukak mulut. I was horrified and Babah decided to go to Hospital Putrajaya.

It was d longest night. Kyra slept at 8pm sebab tak tido siang. The house was very quite. I tried to go to sleep but my eyes won't shut. I checked my FB but there's wasn't many interesting status to comment on. Nak uodate emassutera.com.my lagilah takde mood... called Babah twice, katanya ramai gila orang, lama menunggu. Tapi finally I did tido, ntahlah wat time, I was counting sheeps. Tapi around 11.30 camtu abah balik... Abah kata memang ya HFMD tapi Jazzy wasn't admitted sebab dia masih ada selera makan. But once dia vomit, we hafto bring her back for admission... I hope not.

This morning I was having a hard time to pujuk Kyra so that pergi umah mama Ruby. Mama n Babah was pressuring "PLEASE PISAHKAN MEREKA" tapi diorang ni nak ke berenggang korang ingat? I had to struggle to bathe her, I had to pujuk segala macam bribe, dia nak juga duduk umah. Tapi tak boleh jadik, 10.30 i had to angkut dia turun, and went to Mama Ruby's. Mesti separate, kalau Kyra kena lagi susah, sebab dia kecik lagi. I went to school to inform about the case and sent her MC. I do hope the school ambil berat, takut ramai lagi yang kena... I went to Alamanda, but I checked on Jazzy by phone, I taught her how to use d phone before I go. I went to Alamanda to find her fav donut and air kelapa... Babah kata tunggu beli di taman warisan tapi biarlah untuk pagi ni dulu...

Its a bit tedious nak jaga dia... Kena asing semua utensil yg dia guna, towel, mandi kena ganti air... yang paling susah nak suruh dia duduk diam satu tempat, memang impossible. Budak besar tu mana lah boleh duk diam... tawakkal jelah.

I hope she gets well fast and tak sampai tahap muntah and all... and I'm taking d risk of myself kena jangkit too. Yelah everyone knows i haf d worst immune system deficiency case in d family. Ni pun dah start gatal-gatal...

Jazzy's 7th B'day Celebration

2010-04-28T01:23:00.001+08:00

We celebrated her Birthday in two places ~ Midvalley Megamall and later on the Cake & Candle Mini Party @ Padi Cyberjaya...

The Midvalley version

Jazzmeen Adreanna Azamzairi... Born in Pusat Rawatan Islam az-Zahrah Bdr Baru Bangi 22 Feb 2003

Merry-Go-Round aka BoJet [Jazzy] or Kuda Alamanda [Kyra]

Tumpang sekaki happy jugak dak kecik ni

Mancing ke kak?

Ni kot ikan yang Jazzy pancing?

Inilah Abah yang dedikasi

dan Omie yang happening haha~

they were there too :o)) happy Jazzy ramai ramai sambut bday dia

with sweet cuz Sofea

[For future ref] This is how Jazzy looks like at the age of 7

At home before the Mini Party version

@ Padi Cyberjaya version

Thanks to Cupcake Dazzle

Seven years of Jazzy...

Them Gals just wanna haf fun!

Selamat Hari Lahir ke-3 Khayra Qaszryna bt. Azamzairi...

2010-01-12T01:50:00.003+08:00

Here are the promised, long awaited pix...

mula mula gi beli hadiah dulu... Omie's request ~ Sg Wang Plaza [dah lama tak merewang situ hehe] Aik? Kakak punya hadiah lagi mahal dari adik punya? Kakak nak masuk sekolah... pastu dapat pulak jadik Ketua Darjah... Abah ngan Omie bagi hadiah jam Casio Poptone :o)) [adik later on got so many other things yg tak done amik gambar]

Aha inilah sebab musabab nya kenapa Omie ajak gi Sg Wang. Korang dah dapat hadiah masing-masing, Omie sangat memerlukan kasut baru, hehe~

ni lagi satu hadiah, melaram je keje~ Disney Original tuh. Omie sendiri pakai sunglass 10 hengget

notty notty Ayra

here comes the cake!

apa lagi diorang tunggu ni... orang dah terliur dah nih!

mende tunggu lagi ni kakak?? Atim pun dah naik bosan ni.

Atuk pulak sangat happy cucu dah besar, Aunty Mein struggle tak kasik Kyra potong kek!

upacara menyembelih cake! Ayra buat apa apa pun control ayu...

upacara perasmian hadiah-hadiah... hehe. Set Dining n Tray Disney Princess.

Earlier post...

Bila dia senyum, semua niat nak marah, mengamuk, nak pukul, hilang. Itulah dia kalau dah namanya Khayra Qaszryna bt Azamzairi.

Sorang nilah yang boleh meng-cool kan kepala Omie dia yang baran ini dalam sekelip mata. Belum ada challenger lagi. Sebesar mana pun salah Kyra, termasuklah merendam K610i Omie jadik sampan, Omie tak dapat nak marah lama-lama. Paling lama ~ 5 minit. Tu pasal Babah cakap, Kyra ni spoil brat, Omie lah punya kerja. Alah, cuba tengok sket muka orang yang bercakap tuh! Dia lagi teruk. Baru 3 tahun, Kyra dah merasa bawak bag Barbie ORIGINAL. Sunglasses Disney Princess pun ori, not to mention so many seluar jeans yg ori ori belaka, baru lagi beli patung si Ipin, beli lagi patung pink tiger. Itu baru B'day girl, yang Kakak nya yang baru dilantik jadik Ketua Darjah 1 Excellent sudah pakai jam Casio Poptone cecah 3 angka harganya aper citer? Bak kata orang biar mak abah bankrap, asal anak idup senang lenang... [serious aku tgh bankrap sekarang]

Last Saturday sudah potong kek. Kyra tak suka tiup lilin rupanya, agaknya dia tau tu bukan budaya Islam hehe. Sudahnya Kakak n Ateem yg tiup. Alah jadilah, lepas tiup lilin dia makan kek 2 slice, licin. hehe, rupanya Kyra hantu kek, selama ni tatau... sebab pneumonia dia, kami memang terpaksa limitkan junkfood for her.

Omie sampai sekarang belum boleh lupa betapa cinonetnya Kyra masa lahir, sedihnya Omie sampai sekarang terkenangkan Kyra dalam incubator. Itulah salah satu sebab sampai sekarang Omie takleh nak marah sangat dengan Kyra compared to Jazzy. My guilty conscience tak clear clear walaupun tau itu Qada' dan Qadar. Tapi Jazzy anak sulung... expectation Omie memang tinggi melangit. Memang kesian tapi Omie tatau camana nak rendahkan expectation tu. Tapi dengan Adik Omie kalah. kalah abes. Bak kata Babah Omie cair sama Adik. Oh yes u Babah U totally got that right.

Tapi hidup ini untuk apa? Siapa lagi nak sayang anak-anak sendiri...?

Happy Birthday Chimoot Mama.... [read: Kyra lebih suka panggil Omie ~ Mama. Ntahlah mengapa tatau]

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Jazzmeen Adreanna ~ Sudah Darjah Satu!

2010-01-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

Kalau u guys added me as a friend in FB, i'm sure u guys tau how over excited I was Jazzy nak masuk skolah rendah. Excited sampai berhabis duit, tak pedulik kerja, rehat tak cukup, nak memastikan everything goes well this first few weeks.

Gambar ada, banyak in fact. Sejak 31st August kami mendaftar, till 3rd -4th day sampailah ke membeli hadiah. Hadiah apa? Jazzy berjaya dilantik jadik Ketua Darjah 1 Excellent SK Putrajaya Presint 16 (1). Bila ditanya cemana Jazzy dapat jadik Ketua Darjah? Jazzy kata "Entahlah, agaknya sebab Kakak besar [she means tinggi] dan suara Kakak kuat kot" Aha like mother like daughter kan... suara petir. hehe.

Siang tadi Jazzy first day masuk KAFA pulak. Comel Jazzy pakai tudung n baju uniform purple. kami panggil Mualaf Gelap, hehe. Muka macam Nenek Chinese dia, tapi kulit gelap. Jazzy dah sunburn teruklah sekarang, tak putih macam masa baby baby dulu... alah takpelah, tu tanda dah besar, kan kan. 2nd and 3rd day aritu ada masalah sket dengan duit belanja. Orang kantin ni memang nak kena komplen ni, ari-ari telan duit student. Mentang-mentang diorang budak kecik, tak pulang baki. Bila tanya Ateem rupanya Ateem pun selalu kena.

Jazzy seemed to be enjoying school very much. Tanyalah kat dia, Jazzy suka gi skolah? Dia akan jawab "Sukkaaaaa sangat sangat sangat" dengan penuh excited. hehe. Walaupun nampak sangat dia letih, tapi dia happy.

Omie ngan Babah pun happy ;o))

Macam-macam hal!

2009-12-03T10:07:00.001+08:00

Aku pun musykil apa kerja diorang sebenarnya masa ni. Ni kat butik ni, barang DCL baru sampai.

Once upon a Ramadhan...

2009-12-03T10:00:00.000+08:00

Dua hari sebelum Aidilfitri, sehari sebelum berangkat ke Sandakah, I brought Jazzy along to Kubur Arwah Nenda & Atuk di Langat. Nak gi Semenyih tak sempat, bz sangat aritu.

Yang sedihnya... ada suara-suara sumbang family kami tak jenguk kubur masa raya. Nah, ini buktinya. kosong lagi belum ada bunga lagi, lepas tu baru kami tabur bunga & daun pandan yang Arwah sendiri tanam, sengaja aku bawak balik kat dia, hasil kerja tangan dia.

Cuma aku nak ingatkan, yang penting doa dan ingatan dan sedekahkan Al-Fatihah banyak-banyak walau di mana kita berada. Tak semestinya ke kubur baru kita dapat beramal untuk yang telah pergi. Banyak cara lain lagi. Kenapa itu yg nak dijadikan isu?

Kyra and beads

2009-12-03T09:49:00.000+08:00

ni antara aktiviti feveret Kyra. Bersepah sepah beads tu karang dibuatnya.

Kyra's 1st Stiching... [like it's gonna be more??]

2009-10-24T20:04:00.003+08:00

Kyra yang lasak. Saper tatau, kan? This happened 3rd March 2009. Am gonna put this post up here for a while [suka bagi Kyra tgk balik gambar gambar ni, bagi dia ingat sket kenakalan membawa padah]. What was d cause? Long story short ~ lompat-lompat menyanyi-nyanyi atas katil, terjun ke bawah nak kejar kakak dengan niat percubaan menjadik Super(wo)man, last-last dagu tersangkut kat pintu, tapi sebab nak jugak kejar kakak, dagu yang tersangkut ditarik begitu sahaja dan terkoyak meninggalkan satu serpih kayu yg nasib baik tak berserabut.

If am not mistaken I was bersiap nak ke butik, weekend so kelam kabut sket. Jadiknya aku berlawa-lawa berkejar ke hospital. That bandage is received from Klinik Mediviron Alamanda, thanks to them. But they advised us to bring her to Hosp Putrajaya cus the case looks complicated, well at least to them. Notice tears from my eyes and blood wiped from her chest, face... etc. there was SO MUCH blood.

A closer but blurry look. Sorry, it was only my K530i.

Arriving at Emergency Dept Putrajaya Hospital. That blood on napkin, belum campur yg dah menitik nitik and wiped from our bedroom's floor. What happened next was... They wiped the wound, saw how deep it was... decide to EXPLORE the wound, to remove serpih serpih if any [u know what explore means, right? 2 male nurses had to wrap her in a blanket and hold her while I held her head and MA explored d wound] after that stitch it. The cut was small, barely 2cm but it was very very deep.

Nice stitch there, buddy!! Now ALL of us dah pernah kena stitch, hoorayyy!

J&K's Current Fav Song

2009-10-24T19:18:00.002+08:00

Kalau dah start je citer Matahariku kat TV3 before Maghrib tu, masing masing mula la nyanyi sambil goyang kepala :) Here goes d song:

Jazz's Last Year's Tadika Graduation

2009-10-20T23:57:00.005+08:00

Macam biasa kita upload gambar dulu. dah berkurun gambar ni tersimpan tak diupload :oP~

Mula-mula... Omie make up dulu. Takyah hire pro make up artist kan Jazzy hehe, special treatment lagi!

Orang sebuk bersiap Kyra dah rasmi pentas dulu!

Haa... tgk kakak dah siap make up dah, cantek tak?

View of the whole pentas sebelum disepahkan... FYI ni kat Auditorium Tg. Azman, Mimos.

Sementara tunggu acara start kitorang parents n family disajikan dengan citer P. Ramlee...

Tgk tangan Omie, siap bawak bekal... untuk Kyra pagi-pagi kena bfast... kan?

Haa... ni program book. List nama diorang ada dalam neh.

Ayra nak dodok sini! Takmoh la dodok dengan Omie! Masalahnya kalo duduk tak apa dia sebuk turun naik tangga tuh!

First persembahan by Senior 6 Tahun, D girl in kurung pergh speaking omputih very very fluently... bagus bagus.

Ni pulak tarian dari Junior 4 tahun... comelz!

Sketsa "Ala Kasemmm!" by seniors...

Apek! Jaga depan ada longkang!!

Haha ni best, sampai sekarang J & K takut burung hantu pasal sketsa ni. Kyra pulak siap dapat hapal lagu "Jangan Takuuuttt Buwong Antu... Nana ada totat semambu"

There she is... :o) Yang paling tinggi sekali, terpaksa laa duduk kat belakang!

Haa... nila graduates dari Tadika Mimos, pasni nak sekolah dah...

After persembahan at prep room...

Ni masuk balik auditorium for closing ceremony, tgklah tuh, happy je...

Dapat hadiah! Yeay ada bag skolah baru...!

We're a proud family... D' Jazzy Bunch!

Kiri ni Cekgu Jazzy masa umur dia 5 tahun...

Ni Cekgu Ada... Jazzy memang manja dengan semua cekgu, tulah favourite student!

Khayra Qaszryna bt Azamzairi

2009-08-21T08:01:00.001+08:00

My Proffesional Model, My Love, My soul

Update on my Jazzy

2009-08-11T07:22:00.002+08:00

There she is, my sulung one. Enrolled July 2009 for Taekwondo. My hope, Kakak will be a Taekwondo champ one day!

Kyra... hospitalized!

2009-08-09T07:23:00.004+08:00

Khayra was admitted to Ward 2C (paediatric) Hospital Putrajaya last Friday at 3 a.m. due to acute asthma. She's now on 4 hourly nebulizer [2 hourly earlier] and steroids.

Salah eja jugak... hmmphh!

Babah n Me took turns to nourish her with love in d hospital, although sumtimes ada jugak lah terjerit-jerit suruh dia duduk diam. Once she cabut her 'inline- [tempat suntik steroid into her nerve] so there was blood all over... *sigh* lasak!

Jazzy's Mother's & Teacher's Day 2009 18 May 2009

2009-05-19T07:52:00.003+08:00

Walaupun sebuk, I made sure I attended this event. I am a proud mother though I seldom show it to her, only to make her strong for she's my eldest.

Class performance... she adressed the crowd, although duduk belakang sebab tinggi sangat :op~

Receiving present from her school

Made me a hand-made card - inside hand-written :
To you Mother...
For always being there
with love and with patience
and for always having time to care and understand
Mother... you're the greatest
Your faith in me
Your gift of being
A womderful mother
All make me realize how lucky
I am to have you in my life
To love and treasure always
Yours Faithfully, Jazzmeen.

Jazz's Handy Manny Xperience

2009-05-10T08:27:00.001+08:00

Jazzy had a trip to wit Handy Manny... she had to prepare a *surprise* for him... a toolbox!

Obviously I was the one who *sculptured* the box :p so I gave her a simple task to give her the *feel* of coming out with an ultra-pretty-in-pink box haha!

Kyra's 2nd Birthday Celebration Day 2 - Cosmo's World

2009-01-15T17:40:00.001+08:00

Monday 12th January we took Little Ayra along with Jazzy to Cosmo's World @ Times Square, both of them get to let go off steam :)

Note :: Kami tertinggal camera, these pix are taken with my NEW SE K530i (Did I post anything on my 2nd phone became Kyra's SAMPAN?)

Just before pegi :)

Frontage

Yeayy naik train! Train ni kan lalu kat Umah Si Nemuk ngan Umah Aci Aci Bukak Pintu... takuttt!

>Nama ride ni Crazy Bus, dia pusing pusing laju [good enuff for kids aku tak rasa apa pun] pastu tetiba dia berenti kat atas lama lama ha haaa tak boleh balekkk. Abah tak naik, dia takut. dia kata nantik dia apuntah [muntah] hahaha

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Ni Merry go Round Pulak. Ayra takut sebab mata diorang besar sangat macam nak kejar Ayra.

Disebabkan Ayra kecik lagi, banyak Ayra takleh main tapi boleh duduk kat playground lama lama and ulang lang naik train and bus sebab masa tu Cosmo's World kosong, monday la katakan haha

Kyra's 2nd Birthday Celebration Day 1 - Mid Valley

2009-01-14T18:04:00.008+08:00

Ha... nilaa birthday girl nya :o) 2 tahun dah baby Umi.

Ini pulak birthday cake dia.

Kakak sayang adik dah dua tahun

The hunting of Kyra's Treasure :op

All together now!
Dariii Jusco sampailah ke Toys 'R' Us kita carik hadiaaahhhh

Abah always wants d best for d kids, tapi tgk barang la plak bah oiii baru 2 tahun tuu

Kakak rasa yang ni pun ok kot dik

Nenek obviously also having fun searching for hidden treasures

Geledah jangan tak geledah!

Keira pun carik gak neh...

Cam best je nehh...

Aunty Mein had one of her 'senget' time masa pening carik hadiah

Uncle Ateem pun tumpang carik sendiri punya tapi :op

Korang cariklah ponek Atuk ha

Nekk! Jumpa dah nak ni!

Alaa tapi ni pun cam best...

Ha kat situ pun ada lagi Umi!

Umi bayar salah satu dari macam-macam hadiah :op Eh tu bukan credit card tau tu kad Jusco hehe

Memoir! Settle beli hadiah. Abah refuse amik gambar instead amikkan gamba

The Makan & Potong Kek

Tunggu food siap. Semua lapar carik hadiah Kyra lama sangat hehe

Umi nak nyala lilin ke bakar kek?

Happy Birthday to U Ayra...

Mmmuahhh ayang Ayra Ma

Phhuhhhh..! Saper yang tiop sebenarnya neh?

Umi potong kek penuh perasaan

Masa untuk MATAN

Sayang anak Babah suap dengan Babah

Another of Aunty Mein's 'senget' moments

Bukak hadiah yang Aunty Mein beli dulu!

End of d day was wrapped up with meeting Para Director Emas Satria - Beli Handbag mahal satu sorang supaya Image Jutawan DCL dapat diserlahkan :)

Jom balekkk! PONEK!

version 2 - Cosmo's World Time Square n with Prezens esok ya satu satu dulu

Kyra's 2nd Birthday... 12th Jan 2009.

2009-01-13T17:56:00.001+08:00

We celebrated our precious baby's birthday for 2 days straight, Saturday 11th with Mama, Papa, Ateem n Mein along and yesterday 12th Jan 2009 (THE day) only the four of us. Pictures are being edited (my Photoshop is running as I type) ... insya Allah esok boleh post, tgh tunggu more pix from Mein.

We were once so worried about her, I cried day and night watching her, and now she's 2 years old. How fast time passed by... She's so precious that we sumtimes HAVE to admit we pilih kasih hahaha. But ah c'mon, who wouldn't Jazzy dah besar and independant. She's so independant that we trust her doing SO many things tapi of course bila dia buat salah we have to scold her :op Well Jazz, if u're reading this one day, do understand that is part of growing up and didikan kami kepada u. Sayang anak tangan-tangan kan ....

pix esok.

Jazz's Sports Day July 2008

2008-11-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

A Concern Dad

Just before Perarakan Masuk Para Alien. Jazz was an alien from Jupiter hehe :op

Ha ni Papa n Mama Alien kot ni hahaha nampak tak Jazz yg paling tinggi kat belakang tu...?

Perhimpunan para Alien sedunia

All ready for the competition!

Determination.

In action!

Jazz steadily Hippity Hopped

And the result? NEVER settle for 2nd Best! Jazz and her team won't first place!

She wanted to keep that ball she won it with hehe [of course we didn't allow it]

In fact seluruh kaum alien Jupiter made it the best house of d day :o)

Jazz is always a concerned soul. Consoling a friend, it seems.

Jovial after winning

Always curious too, ei itu tripod lah bukan teropong!

Kami melayan Kyra yang baru dapat kaki.

Bakal menantu? Nahhh...!

Always adorable.

Dessert of d day.

Jazz's Mother's and Teacher's Day

2008-11-26T04:42:00.003+08:00

I know i know, ini berkurun yang lalu... takpelah ehk... asal post :op~

Baru keluar dari kantin

Happy among friends

Eh adik enter frame?

Ayra pun nak skolah gakk

Headmaster sangat bersemangat :)

Penaung semangat also :)

Perarakan masuk Jazz n classmates

Jazz cakap "Assalamualaikum, kami murid-murid tahun 5 akan menyampaikan persembahan *apatah umi lupa* jadi marilah kita EnJoy!" hehe, my girl :)

They ran to us, and gave us this. And yes, I cried. U know I'm sucha crybaby.

Re-Start

2008-11-26T04:41:00.001+08:00

Sorry cus I know I have been neglecting this blog intentionally. For d sake of keeping memoirs of my kids, I will re-blog in D Jazzy Bunch again... very soon :o)

the truth, the time [version Jazzy Bunch]

2008-07-05T11:34:00.002+08:00

The truth is, time allocation for blogging is almost zero. The truth is I'm trying to build my life, my career, my family. The truth is i need all d time I haf to make money. The truth is i dun know if i can handle pressure, even a little bit, anymore. Huephoria ended almost a week. I so wanted to type and blog about it, about all d experience, the true colors I saw in a lot of people, the pressure, the happy times, the good time, the bad time, the ugly time... how people didnt care about the show until Dato' Badlisham head of MDEC suddenly confirmed at the very last minute that he's gonna show up and launch the graduation show of my beloved [most, some hated] students... how we got screwed, and also how we were personally thanked by our bosses, shook our hands and got a day off.... all the details of those experiences, sorry I cant share it with u guys anymore cus... i simply haf NO TIME to sit down and type! Jazz has been blooming well, her teacher's and mother's day pix is still not blogged, then came her sports day where she got first and her Jupiter sport's house got first too, pictures are still in my camera, havent been imported into the pc even. Kyra... my sweet little girl has begin to utter understandable words and phrases, she loves birds and fishes, where I could just drive with her on my lap around Cyberjaya or Putrajaya to find her Bi-Bird Ak-Ak [burung gagak] or Bi-Bird Chip Chip [any smaller singing birds] and I also bought the girls a Siamese-Fighter ikan laga and Crown-Tail. I remember those times when we used to walk the streets of Pasar Pudu just to bring Jazz to see fishes and all sorts of weirdies they sold there. Sadly, Kyra do not haf that liberty.... Time flies... and I'm gettin' old. many things aren't there yet. Hope it'll soon get into place.....

Kyra :: my darling girl with big guts and deep determination

2008-04-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

I do not think i hafto elaborate more, i just need to show u guys these pix

But anyhow... she's still my sweet li'l Kyra ... :o)

who in the morning wakes me up in a happy smile :o)

Updates on Birthdays,,,,

2008-03-31T12:30:00.001+08:00

Kyra's Bday ~ 12th January 2008 she turned one and we held a doa selamat gathering. Amond atendees were achik whole family and of course my aunties n cuzs
Jazz's Bday ~ 22nd February 2008 she turned 5 siapa sangka aku ada anak dara kan. We celebrated with Mama Papa Mein n Ateem @ Kenny Rogers Midvalley and she powed mama for a Playdoh set. Her Abah bought her a watch and I just bought her a lipgloss :op~ [sian Jazzy dapat mak miskin n kedekut dapat lipgloss je]
B'day Mama n Ateem ~ 22nd & 23rd March we went for shopping at The Gardens Midvalley also for Baskin robbins ice cream hangout :: all expenses paid by the rich bday girl

here are the pix.... [put pix first will add in remarks later]

Jazz's Bday

Jazz was Celeb of the day, the rest became paparazzi

She insisted to suap the cake to me :o)

Apa plak ni Keira nak gak!

Keira dan muka blur-nya masih tak puas ati

trying to figure out which item would damage nenek best

mmmm... bila bleh makan kek niii

There the cake...!

dat nite she refuse to sleep, esoknya susah nak bangun to school

Kyra's Bday

the bday girl

the cake...~!

Yasin recital led by papa

the pinata which made the kids' day :o) [and end up sampai sekarang pun aku jumpa pembalut sweets n chocs bawah kusyen]

the food~! mostly cooked by me, others by kyra's nenek n unyang

as the host, i MUST be the most 'bersepah' one

mama is clearly having a good time at the gathering

Ummi Een is in need of another girl muahahahha

potong~!

all presents underwent quality control by nenek

ee apasal size dia sama je ngan aku?

potong~!

yang kasut ni plak lagi besar dari muka aku apa daaa Ummi Een beli size gedabak

best and biggest present of d day ngaa~! from nenek :o)

Mama's Bday ni pelik sket sebab gambar kek pun takdek hehe

nom~nom [makan] @ RakThai Midvalley look at how they serve pineapple fried rice

they like the ad, thuis take picture with it. now u know why i like to make ads, watch ads and do ads ~ it runs in the vein :op~

Full Ride~! Papa pun join sama dengan alasan Kyra nak naik jugak, elehh~!

Chickenpox became airborne???

2008-02-12T23:21:00.001+08:00

It was Khayra a few weeks ago and now it's Jazzy's turn to get chickenpox!

I saw it d day before yesterday, but Azam refused to believe my expert views "DAT ONE ZIT IS CHICKEN POX LAH" then suddenly yesterday after she came back from skool with her Babah, she already got invaded. having just returned from Az-Zahrah [aku sakit pinggang, aperhal tah cam orang tua siot] so I asked Babah to take her alone to d Doc's.

Returning home, almost enthusiastically telling me d report dat Jazzy was the 9th patient with chickenpox yesterday at dat clinic. It was around Maghrib time. Imagine if more came da nite...?

Apparently d doctor said d disease is spreading wide n fast, and might have become airborne. Wah! epidemic kah? Putrajaya dilanda epidemik demam campak? By the way Jazzy was given 2 weeks MC... like... uh-oh. Aku dak nak berenti n masuk tempat baru... err....

Since it's my last few days in ACE i had a lot to do... and also hadto interview 2 potential successor today. And I also got a project with Adar who's getting married so i hadta go to d printer to check on prices and also paper types.... Adar is a very cerewet bride, but I like cerewet brides. Crewet brides loves custom made Wedding Cards, Goodie Bags, Stickers.... they give me good BIZ! muahahaha

So... having said that, can u imagine I brought Jazzy along to those places? Ngahahaha no my intention is not to spread d disease more widely *evil laugh* but halo I had no choice la deyyy

But yeah... I do haf d intention to bring her to watch Dunia Baru d Movie if i could get my stuffs done on time. So whole cinema can get chickenpox.

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Been feeding Jazzy air kelapa... some say not good to give it early, some say good. I go for the 'good to give it early' cus biarla keluar all d chickenpox then later on dia cepat gone. dunno my theory is true, perhaps doctors like Jazree could clarify?

And mothers, wanna share experience how u took care of ur chickenpoxed kiddo?

It's January 12th!

2008-01-12T17:11:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Lahir Khayra...!

Dan kepada diri sendiri... selamat mengenang betapa gundah-gulananya hati ketika ini bila mengenangkan anak di NICU dan aku stuck kat labor room for 3 days...

Mengenangkan itulah, maka kami decide tak buat birthday party, instead majlis bacaan doa selamat dan yasin untuk Khayra, esok. Yang dipanggil tak ramai... rakan-rakan dan keluarga terdekat mana yang dapat datang. Tak dapat datang doakanlah dari jauh ye.... Sekarang ni tgh sebuk kat dapur masak memasak, one woman show in d kitchen for now. esok ramai la tuh nolong. semalam pun dah heret Mein ke Pasar Tani n Supermarket, tadi dah kerah Babah yang tengah demam beli barang-barang yg tercicir... Babah dah botakkan kepala [AGAIN!] membayar nazar anak dia sihat dah sampai setahun...

Salam Maal Hijrah...

2008-01-11T07:50:00.001+08:00

Nak post semalam, tapi semalam satu hari suntuk demam takleh bangun. Kepala macam nak pecah. Dah pergi doctor dapat ubat, barulah kebah sikit pagi ni. tapi dapat MC... MC LAGI!

So bz... and tak larat nak type panjang. but i wanna play my part in searching Sharlinie... so here goes...

Picture courtesy of Utusan Online

Hope she won't be as unfortunate as Nurin... who is this Lelaki Kucing, so sick hearing dat name. Please lah, tangkap la cepat before many more jadik mangsa!

New Year... New Tadi-Car ~!

2008-01-03T04:35:00.002+08:00

Two days in 2008! Is it too late for me to bid U guys

Happy New Year!!

Well hope not, cus I just did, hehe. Sorry ya, age bertambah, meaning responsibility bertambah. blogging will have to be less prioritize. family first. work second. self third. the rest....

Well.. as usual, pix speaks more words than I'd rather ramble... :o))) here goes!

Jazzy goes to Tadika Mimos!

She has better PR than her parents

That was less than 7 mins after I left her alone

I think she'll survive Boarding School better than I did.
Hmm.. making plans already, eh mom? Whatever happens to 'Let them choose their own path?"

Lihatlah ketinggian mereka :op~

Umi gave birth to a new babygirl, ~~who is already a Puan~~

She's a Blue Viva

.::~~WQV 5648~~::. kinda remind me of my previous babe, JEV 6428.

The prove that it is brand new

He is the most [~~or over?~~] qualified inspector. so i left d job to him.

Biarpun hanyalah bapak tiri, tetap sayang macam anak sendiri. Sukatilah Babah, jimat tenaga aku :op~ [earlier on and later on, dia tak berenti membebel being a co-drover on how dangerous my driving is, dahlah bodoh parking, asik kena kutuk je ISK~~!!!]

Khayra lah Khayra...

2007-12-25T02:45:00.000+08:00

Khayra masuk emergency & blood test lagi!

Jumaat, while Ummi dan Kakak bershopping sakan @ Ikea, Curve, Ikano & One Utama [pow Nenek & Atuk] for Kakak's 1st school bag and other stuffs, Babah sms temperature Keira 38.7 degrees. Hmm... asked Babah to handle her well cus masa tu Nenek, Aunty Mein, Ateem n Kakak belum puas shopping. Ummi? Menahan sakit kaki [jalan tempang, weight on one leg, can u imagine how many days my legs keras lepas round 4 shopping complex tu?]. Balik singgah pasar tani, Keira dah ragam ragam... bawaklah gi Az Zahrah... katanya demam panas je... dah tunjuk ada bintik merah kat tangan. [Ummi tensen ngan satu doktor kat Az Zahrah ni, fed up betul kalau dapat dia, dia takleh wat decision, bila kita mention baru dia angguk-angguk and ask his assistant to follow wat we say, baik aku yg jadik doktor!]

Next day... [selepas Babah terpaksa berhempas pulas menjaga anak kesayangan dia merengek rengek] lepas lepak tgk DVD Pirates of d Caribbean At World's End [nak jugka mention tu, Johnny Depp la katakan :op~] baru la perasan, rashes merah tu makin teruk especially kat kaki pulak dah. Maka tak jadiklah Babah nak mengqadha tidur dia sebab Ummi dah membebel. Bawak lagi pergi Az Zahrah. Tataulaa apaaaa nasib kami, dapat d same doctor. He cannot determine what it is, he said dengue bukan, chickenpox bukan, virus tapi tatau virus apa and makmal tutup. Sudahnya dia refer kami ke Hospital Putrajaya [mengabehkan boreh betul doktor neh, membazir waktu, wang dan tenaga~!]

Sampai kat Emergency Hospital Putrajaya [ni tempat lepak kitorang, korang jangan tatau] cam biasa, kena jugka amik darah, just to be on d safe side [sekali lagi, decision ni aku yg buat, bila doktor balik balik tanya aku, nak ke tak amik darah dia, memang sah aku layak jadik doktor]. Jadiknya kami kena halau tunggu kat bilik lain masa diorang cucuk tangan Keira, buat kali yang keberapa puluh I lost count edy [ni aku tak paham kenapa, usually dia suruh kitorang yg pegang Keira].

Since Babah dah janji ngan Uncle dia nak fetch at KLIA dat evening, me n Keira spent a quality time waiting for the results at that Emergency Dept. Kakak ikut Babah, kalo dia stay, pensan la makcik, takpun kena amrah sebab anak bising. Dalam 45 mins je, result dah kluar.... takdek denggi... syukur. CHICKENPOX!!

Tunggu lagi Babah... sampai kol 7.30. Keira sempat muntahkan baju Ummi kat lobby Hospital Putrajaya, sambil baling baling segala mainan... itu belum citer lagi Umminya buat pregnancy test while waiting tu. Ha? Apa? hahahhahahhahah. Tamoh citer pasal tuh. hahahahhaha. Anyway Keira sehat sekarang, demam dah kebah, tinggal Chickenpox nye yang kecik dan comel macam dia merata rata, Babah rajin sangat gi beli air kepala muda fresh fresh kat Tmn Warisan, and Ummi kenalaa jaga Keira seminggu ni. Sekian... byeeeeeeee~!

Pix Updates.... :o)

2007-12-18T16:11:00.002+08:00

Midvalley Outing [last weekend]

She's eating mashed potato~!

Jazzy had a 'thing' about christmas trees, hehe

The Snow White is taking a stroll in an enchanted forest...

Well, hafto admit i haf a 'thang' about the tree too haha. After a bit of editting, this butterfly ornament looks as if she's lost in the snow storm!

Hello Hello...

TV Conferencing
Well if u think I've been neglecting my kids by letting them watch tv in such short distance, why dun u come over to our house and show ur expertise in restraining them, cus we've given up long ago :op~

Conference 01 :: Jazz, Keira with Upin & Ipin [this is whree Jazzy gila makan ayam goreng, like Ipin]

Conference 02 :: with Barney n Friends

Conference 03 :: "live" classroom! hahahah!

Mischievious~! They are my girls :o)

Elephant wannabe kot neh...

Mana babah, manaaaa babah ilang, cak!~

At her usual 'sanctuary'

Rasa macam ada anak lelaki, sorang ni :op~

Isn't she tall~!

11 mths and writing .... hehe

The Story of Godzilla

2007-11-28T16:00:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, a baby-Godzilla arrive in a Townhouse in Putrajaya. It's a female-zilla. She's is no doubt a panas-baran one. She will stop at nothing, nothing could ever stop her from doing what she wants to do and getting what she wants to BITE.

She gets more and more aggressive day by day, especially after her first bud of tooth made an appearence. And now she has four. Thus, mama-zilla and papa-zilla decided to empty her babycot once again after recently being invaded by un-ironed clothes.

Baby-Godzilla is too fast for mama-zilla and papa-zilla to chase. Everytime mama-zilla cooks in d kitchen, Baby-Godzilla chases her to n fro. When papa-zilla wants to go downstairs, Baby-Godzilla wants to go down the stairs too. When not allowed, Baby-Godzilla will scream her lungs out. Sister-Zilla coudln't sleep sometimes because Baby-Godzilla loves to scream, weather when she's mad, or when she's happy. When Baby-Godzillacouldn't get what she wants, she screams too, and throw things that are within her reach.

That's the story of Godzilla in Putrajaya....

10 month and counting

2007-11-28T13:32:00.000+08:00

Guess what are they doing? A Toys 'R' Us Direct Mailer just arrived, and they're booth SCAVENGING on what to buy, and it's like everything in there. Jazzy was like 'Kakak nak ni, nak ni, nak ni, nak ni...' non-stop for like 4 minutes. And Khayra was screaming at the pictures, POINTING here and there.

Khayra will be 11 months next week... now she's 10, and has 4 'hungry' gigi kapak, she likes to bite nowadays :o)))

More missing girl...

2007-11-28T12:09:00.001+08:00

This email came to me from Babah this morning...

Please distribute to others so that this information will be shared by Malaysian to locate this poor kid. At least we have contribute to her family by distributing this email.

May Allah protect her insya Allah...

Seorang anak jiran berumur 10 thn sepatutnya dihantar ke sekolah oleh kakaknya di dapati hilang dari rumah dan juga tidak berada disekolah. Nota yang ditulisnya menyebut ikut kereta kawan. Hingga kini kanak2 tst masih tidak dapat dikesan.

Usaha mengesannya telah dibuat sejak pagi, hingga kini masih gagal. Oleh itu ia di kelasifikasikan sebagai hilang.

Bersama ini diserta gambar kanak tersebut. Jika ada antara saudara menjumpainya atau mengesannya sila hubungi no. telefon berikut:

Balai polis Bdr Baru Bangi: 03 8925 0282. Jiran: 012 3831 616, 019 236 7507, 012 3799 004.

Mohon bantu dan sebarkan. Perkembangan seterusnya akan diberitahu. Sekian terima kasih.

Update :: apparently she was found, but somehow the email is circulating. Despite Malaysians are getting even more concern on this matter, Nurin's murderer is still at large :o(

Raya....

2007-11-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

Gila, now baru nak update Raya pix. Dah bersimen kaki baru ada masa nak buat benda ni... hehe sorry ya..

1st Raya... Umah mama...

Get to raya with my 2nd one... for the first time :o)

Ek elee nenek... takat 50 hengget takmolaa, bagila 500!!

Cium kaki mama... blissness for d first time :op~

Mein pow duit abang ipar huhu

Nenek...~!!!

The Flight to Sandakan 2nd Raya

Ngeeee Keira ni bisingggg nak tido pun takleh~!

Subuh subuh while waiting to beratur like Sekolah Rendah in LCCT

1st time naik plane and I am very happyy wheee~! [not to forget, hyper, she didn't sleep the whole 2.75 hrs journey]

The Azam's Family

After 4 years, inilah hasilnya :op~
Abah-Keira, Lyling-Shasha, Ben-Sofea, Jazzy the eldest cucu of all...

Semua manja ngan Aunty Awa...

It's just us... and the sea...

A walk to remember...

This is beraya Ala Keira, Jangan duduk atas kerusi, duduk bawah meja ok! And tissue, is meant to be 'racik' :op~

Babah would you please get some clothes on?

Dat nite, she was the star :o)

She has the Sweetest Smile among us all...

Ummi always has a non-inferiority-complex issue

Do you guys know this is THE MOST delicious fish of all time, and very easily cooked?

Jazzmeen... :((

2007-10-06T04:30:00.001+08:00

Right after sahur 4th October 2007, we rushed to Emergency Dept Hosp Putrajaya, Jazzy was crying all night since 2 am.

At first we were really pissed with her cus both of us was bz during d day and had barely any rest. That nite, we couldn't sleep. We thought she was just behaving her USUAL tantrums, but when she complains of chest pain, we immediately panicked, ate a bit for sahur, and rushed to emergency.

She was given nebulizer immediately.

Nebulized twice.... right after arriving and again after check up.

Her rising heartbeat, due to gasping for air...

a concerned dad...

Jazzy... *sigh* selalu buat ummi risau! Am a terrible mother. Why am I so garang?!

8 months old Khayra @ September...!

2007-10-03T13:18:00.001+08:00

Ayang cucu nenek ~!

Ni tatau la apa masalah dia neh. Nak tukar pampers Babah? LoL~

Kakak nenenkan Adik, Adik pun nenenkan Kakak ok?

Alo kawan... mau bikin bisnes ka? Jumpa saya la... Takda pengalaman? Tidak pa, jumpa saya. Kursus, kita ada, pinjaman, kita pun ada. 5k, 10k, saya boleh bagi... 50k? (click click) saya pun boleh bagi. Ingat, kami bukan along, kami cuma nak tolong...~!

Among her terlebih gula times

Gulp gulp gulp~! 1st try with cup!

Their cuddling moment :o)))

Look ma~! I can make bubbles!!

Sorang dah macam rempit dah, sorang macam tak puas ati je nih. Hahahahah~!

Adoi masa ni rupa Ateem betul.

Al-Fatihah...

2007-09-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

Nurin Jazlin Jazimin...

May your soul rest in peace, as your physical weren't
You went away in this blessed Ramadhan
A good sign that Allah loves you very much
Aunty hopes the Allah place you amongst His loved ones, orang-orang yg bertaqwa
Sorry Aunty couldn't put this with beautiful words
For Aunty myself is saddened with this grieve news about you
But uh... whutever it is, my prayers are with you!

As a mother of two young girls
Nurin has opened Aunty's eyes to love and care for them more
Thank you Nurin... Pemergian Nurin ada hikmahnya...

Again, Al-Fatihah....

Merdeka Eve Outing

2007-09-14T23:39:00.000+08:00

This was only part of it. We went to Ikano Power Center where Mama bought dress for Khayra and Seed cargo pants for Jazzy and Seed blouse for the new slimmer me (dia dah janji nak belikan baju banyak kalo i got slimmer). THen a walk at The Curve's Night Market where we had (sinfully) Fountain Choc Dip Strawberries yummmyyyyy then dah nak patah kaki berjalan tu mama sanggup lagi singgah Downtown (all because of Nenek sebenarnya who is complaining dah takdek orang nak bawak da jenjalan) then after dat menonggok menunggu Japanese fireworks kat Putrajaya. We didn't know d fireworks will wait till midnite. we waited since 8 pm!!! grrr!!! naper tak wat announcement!!!!

Laa... kejap doctor, kejap model, ni architect lak ke?

2007-09-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

hehe kalo amik gambar selalu ilang mata. flash satu hal, mata sepet lagi satu hal. see la, she's always proud of her creations, walaupun mak ayah dia jenis tak pandai memuji. *sigh* her confidence level is jest like her mother, over-confident most of the times...!!

Mischievious

2007-09-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Tgk muka dia tuh, she found a new way to sepahkan umah. She also got a new hobby, kejar Joey satu umah, hahahaha. Joey skang dah pening, dulu ada sorang je nak buli dia, skang dah ada dua Monster Inc. kat umah neh. hahahah.

ni tgh tag team ah nih, menyepah n mengejar Joey n memekik mekik satu rumah.

Haa... tu gigi dia....!! Cak! But now dah ada 4 dah ni masa ni dua je :op

::Pics taken last week::

Jazzy dan rambut pendeknya!

2007-09-14T22:41:00.001+08:00

Inilah rambut terbaru Jazzy.... Ada sebab sebenarnya potong rambut dia pendek. Satu dia belum pandai jaga lagi. Dua sebab dia kuat berpeluh, so eczema kat leher dia senangggg sangat jadik, so untuk prevent jadik lagi teruk, potong la... :oD comei la pulak, hehe.

On Khayra

2007-08-26T03:10:00.001+08:00

As usual, there's a lot more to say about Khayra, yelah anak bongsu, after all Jazzy had her time.

Emergency @ Hospital Putrajaya

Khayra just slept @ 2.45 am just now. Before dat she was having fun, playing with Jazzy and Auntie Dilla. Jarang dia buat perangai main malam-malam ni, selalunya 11 pm dia dah nyenyak sampai ke pagi except for nite feed. What happened? Agaknya puas dah siang tadi being lembik. This morning she had very high temperature of 40 degree that we brought her to Emergency @ Hospital Putrajaya. Like melancholic, what we'd been through almost 7 months ago, Khayra had [again] a blood test and this time, X-ray too. As if she remembered how painful her blood tests was before [during her yellow fever period] she cried until her face turned red and muntah a bit. while us, the procedure was just too familiar. Well... Alhamdulillah, she does got infection in her blood but not the level that she needs to be admitted to the ward, they just gave her a strong antibiotics for 3 days, elixir and also PCM. I am paranoid to meds to d kids already sebab dah selalu sangat but since this time hospital yg bagi... lega sikit rasa hati. So she still cry and cry petang tadi sampai Ummi yang shopaholic ni tak ikut Babah gi beli groceries nak jaga dia kat umah and finally slept from 4 pm - 7 pm. Dah puas tido agaknya, tu yg lambat sangat dia tido tu... [there's a picture of us in the hospital tapi tak sempat nak upload lagi, will update later]

7 months 2 weeks :: milestone :: Crawling and Teething [badly]

Dia main bukan sebarang main until 2.45 am tadi, she was CRAWLING. These past few days memang dia dah start angkat-angkat bontot, tapi tak gerak lagi. But today, bila dah lega sikit malam tadi, she started to move!! We were thrilled! And also, maybe one of the biggest cause of the high fever is that 4 of her teeth are showing buds!! hehe... Mana tak demam, sekali semua nak jadik at one time... infection tu satu hal lah kan.

Last week >> Supergirl wannabe.

This week, start dah....

Eeeeee gatalnya gigi...!!!

Other than teething, Khayra suggests that this could also be used as a pair of sunglasses - Babah cakap Khayra macam Cheezels.

Khayra is also a good teacher, she was trying to teach Auntie Mein how to haf strong legs >>

And also how to use a baby's computer :: yes, bukan kakak je yang computer whiz, Khayra pun sama :op

Another Anak Babah, antu TV.

Also... A goalie wannabe...!

Alah... Khayra memang manja, ngan saper saper pun...!

Ooowww.... korang ngumpat aku eh?!

On Jazzy

2007-08-26T02:54:00.000+08:00

Last two weeks me n Babah had to take a half day off [patutnya MC je, sebab my stupid company potong my gaji for 2 hours dat day, kononya anak tak cover *grrr*], Jazzy had a mouth allergy. Bangun tido tiba-tiba nampak she had a fat-mouth, kami yg dah bersiap gi keje rupanya bersiap untuk gi klinik. Tatau la apa yang silap makan... sampai jadik gini >>

Fat Mouthed

Jazzy has a specialty of being... HYPER. Look at one of her biggest ability >>

*sigh*
What happened? She was actually trying to HELP throwing Khayra's diaper into the plastik sampah but ended up hitting a jar of Ribena. Memang lah marah gila makcik dibuatnya, sampai tak terkata sebab masa tu umah baru je kemas.

But yeah... she was trying to be a good help. Intelligent as she is [tak kira nak puji jugak] see what she can do with the 'intelligent machine'. At first I took this picture senyap-senyap, then when she realize I was with camera, she was boasting and pointing at what she did. Wattodo... kenalah admit... Adobe Illustrator tu wei, at 4 years old! And she did EVERYTHING by herself, I didn't Create New Document for her, nor did I teach her the Tools in hte Tool Palette I think she just learned by looking at what I did when I do my work at home. Owh did I mentioned she knows how to play Minesweeper, Freecell and Solitaire already? Anak seorang Mat IT and Minah Multimedia, can't help it, eh? Nampaknya soon ada orang akan jadik antu The Sim n Red Alert macam maknya. Abessss....!! [And Nenek Butik really wants her to be a Surgeon, yeah right!] >>

Like mom like daughter >> Love drawing, kuat membebel, kuat merajuk and juga kuat bersuara.
Like father like daughter >> Panas Baran, stubborn, antu TV and antu Game.

Long overdue....

2007-08-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

Here are new pixies... been months, eh? Khayra pun dah besar, 7 months next week. She's trying to learn to sit, but mostly now she's very very mobile, just by rolling and rollling and rolllinnnggggg! Latest news, Babah almost tot someone kidnapped her when he woke up @ 3 am this morning to find Khayra is nowhere in sight. Rupanya dia tido bawah kerusi!

This was when I gave her her first solid, one week before she turned 6 months. She totally enjoy solids! She must be thinking 'No wonder la Umi tembam semacam, this solid tastes good!' :op

Well... beside Rusks and Nestum, another of her fav snack is her own foot!

They are soo fond of each other. Makes me smile everytime!

They even had fever together.

Enuff said.

Even merempit together??? tgk Khayra, isap tanduk moose.

My cutie pie in gowns... She's totally a gown girl, unlike Jazzy, we dressed her mostly in Jeans. But Khayra... her softness makes us buy gowns gowns gowns.

Trust me, this wasn't candidly shot. It WAS a post. Jazzy n her daydreams! Owh did I mention we might get sumone as Dafi AF5 as menantu? OMG she's totally throwing her heart out for dat boy *sigh*

Showing off the coloring book I bought for her the previous day after work.

With their Atuk n Nenek Sabah.

The people who kept my life busy.

The bond can never be untied.

Battle of 3 Anak Sulungs

2007-07-06T00:18:00.001+08:00

In our house ada 3 anak sulung.

Me.
Babah.
Jazzy.

And these three selalu berbattle. Al-maklum, kami yg memang sedia keturunan panas baran, anak sulung pulak selalunya mmg keras kepala. And tambahan lagi, I haf a very high-pitch voice, and MANY ppl are iritated by it especially the two other sulungs. A disadvantage of being a indo-minang lady. Some may say it's an advantage, but to me itsa curse. Siap semayang hajat lagi nak slowkan suara. tapi takleh. memang dah dari kecik. Suwey betul.

But out of it, Khayra benefits d most. Dia yg paling kena sayang dengan semua para sulung. Bongsu la katakan. Haha.

Tapi suara Khayra dah ada ciri-ciri suara Umi. Uh-oh.

Khayra started solid... meniarap....

2007-07-03T10:29:00.000+08:00

I am sorry dat I am too bz to blog. Khayra has started turning herself (meniarap) since last 2 weeks, and I started giving her solid food (Dumex Nutrakids for now) since last Thursday since I got a 2 days' MC for having acute asthma attack the previous nite. I got pix of her first meal, but I am in no position to upload it now. I will. I WILL.

B'day Babah, New Nieces

2007-06-15T12:22:00.002+08:00

Babah turned 31 last 11th of June 2007. Biologically Babah's birthday is actually 12.30 am 12th June 2007, but the nurse who wrote his Sijil Beranak put 11th June, so Babah's b'day in d IC is one day earlier. If not, b'day Babah would've been the same with Alyssa Sofea bt Azmelvin, our new niece who was birthed (normal) 3.2 kg 12th June 2007 sumwhere around noon. Babah alerted me with the happy news dat very day just a few minutes after her birth after he had been alerted by the baby's daddy, Ben, my adik ipar who's living in Alor Star now with wifey Salwa. but she had given birth Perlis, her hometown.

Two more new nieces (TWINS!) were previously born in SJMC - Aryssa Saira Ahmad Akram and Arianna Saira Ahmad Akram on the 8th of June. Mummy `Na hadto undergone C-Section, but all are well now.

Babah is very excited and announced 20th of October 2007 will be Khayra's and Lyssa's Cukur Jambul in our Kg. Sim-Sim, just one week after Hari Raya Aidilfitri. All are invited, provided u can buy the plane tix urselves, hehe Babah also was over-excited when he fixed the theme color for this raya PINK, applicable to EVERYONE in d family. He was so excited that he forgot that we already WEAR PINK FOR RAYA BEFORE and now even DADDY and BEN and ZUL (another adik ipar) hafto wear PINK. hahahha... sukati awak ler Babah. Mentang-mentang all girls, dia fix semua PINK. I LURVE PINK. but others terpaksa la LURVE also. :oD

pix...

Khayra and her Gadgets, with her teething sore gum!

2007-05-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

As a newly working mother, all we can think of how to spend our 1st salary is for our families, ESPECIALLY our kids. So... here's Khayra with her cool Fisher Price 3-in-1 huge toy, convertible from a musical hanging thingy to a basic piano when she can sit and when she could already stand, it converts to a rocking horse! And... it's pretty costly but... hmm...

Haf u seen a cannibal before? We haf two in our house haha!

I bought this teether at mom's care yesterday, since over the weekend Khayra have been vigorously chewing her hands [and of course ppl's cheeks when they try to kiss her]. cost me RM29.90. What??? Teether pun RM29.90. Aha... there's a magic on it, it vibrates when Khayra bites!! haha she sure loves it! Dia punya geram wit dat thing, sampai menggigil dia gigit the teether.

So... now u know, why i wanna work so badly. Apart from to haf money for myself, it's for d kids. Kakak already got tonnes of new baju from my first salary. Now Khayra's turn. SO WORTH IT!

Golek la golek Khayra...!

2007-05-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

Si kecik tu dah start bergolek arini... tadi masa Ummi nak urut dia [belakang] tiba-tiba dia angkat kepala and pusing balik ke depan. tapi tulah dia, dari belakang ke depan boleh, dari depan ke belakang dia tanak. hahaha... reverse pun reverse la Khayra oi... asalkan Khayra happy. Tapi gambar kat atas tu bukan msa dia golek tadi, masa tu tak sempat nak capai camera hehe. Gambar tu gambar semalam :op

Ni pun gambar semalam. Tgk la pekerjaan Babah dengan Kakaknya nih. Ummi tgh sebuk berkarate [kalo Has bersilat, hehe] dengan periuk kat dapur diorang membega si Khayra. Macam anak jopun :op!

Mata Khayra!!!!

2007-05-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

Remuk. Redam. My.Heart.Aches.

Katanya budak lain baling mainan, kecik je mainannya. We terminated d babysitter. I know it's not her fault 100%, but to me, this is a huge case of incapability. Plus recently she has been complaining too much, and I caught her not @ home leaving my kids with her diasbled mother and once Khayra was lying ON THE FLOOR with a very thin lapik, unattended.

Enuff is enuff. We pujuk the old sitter... malam tu jugak after balik dari klinik. Luckily, she loves my two bundle of joy enuff to accept them, despite her bzness.

Most recent pix

2007-04-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

Her favourite sleeping position...

My two HappYness

3 months! tapi demam....

2007-04-15T04:28:00.000+08:00

Dah tiga bulan dah baby boom Khayra...! 9th April aritu Ummi berjaya amik cuti untuk bawak Khayra gi amik imunisation and check up (cuti? cuti mende kalo balik keje anak tido terus wat keje???!!!).

The imunisation just like the previous month caused Khayra having fever, till now. Sekarang ni bukan fever je, tambah dengan batuk n selsema. quite bad, viral fever has catch up with her, musim. Sedih tgk Khayra lembik je kena makan ubat... :o(

Eventho I am sooo caught up with work, Khayra is my 1st priority. We got a memo last week saying we hafta work EVERY DAY until all 4 encyclopedia finishes, but yesterday and today, i dont bother to follow the rules. Hey, I've got a kid who needs my extra attention here okay, banyak duit pun tak guna kalo anak tak sihat! I texted my editor dat i wont be coming due to Khayra unwellness. She said ok, dunno bout tthe rest of d office. but i didnt go anyway *puff*

Jazzy is growing rapidly more than i can cope! She's so terlebih pandai, dat i sumtimes couldn't say a word to her misvbehaving. Adaaaa ajer alasan n jawapan dia tsk! *sigh* i guess this is wat every mothers face when anak dia umur umur macam ni. Talking bout 'umur-umur macam ni', nak jugak review pasal citer Yin, or Azrin yang ilang kat Sogo tuh (ada jugak tuh org yg tatau pasal citer ni kalo tak dah lama Yin tu dipulangkan). I know the parents seems careless and all, some ppl are sooo mad at the poor couple, kat opis pun ada yg kecoh kata couple tu tak pandai jaga anak sampai dah 2-3 kali ilang, even abah said 'diorang ni mesti cuai ni' but... deep in my heart, I really couldn't blame them 100%. I myself sumtimes haf problems with Jazzy running around while I'm doing things. the toddler Yin is 5 years old and boy summore. Kalo korang ada anak yg hyperactive macam Jazzy, korang for sure akan paham. It's hard to control em. tapi yelah, again, prioritize! Shopping dulu ke, anak dulu?

Me n Abah nowadays are having very very little sleep (especially me lah kan :op). Pagi awal dah keluar antar Jazzy n Khayra to umah Mak Ngah (the new sitter's nickname), dah senja baru nak balik amik diorang balik, baru laa nak main dengan anak-anak. Anak da tido karang, Ummi buat percubaan mendesign dengan muka dah tersengguk-sengguk. Weekend baruuu nak mengemas umah, gosok baju.... itupun kengkadang tak dan. Dah kata takleh cuti langsung, ni pun curik curik cuti, pagi buta macam ni Ummi masih belum tido wat keje. Gila. Duniawi sangat ke kami ni? tapi dah tanggungjawab... camana ni?

Letih wooo.... :'o|

Rindu lagi :(

2007-04-05T02:22:00.001+08:00

tido opis. rindu anak. *cry*

Spur of the moment...

2007-04-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

Rindunyaaaaa kat budak-budak especially Cik Khayra.

Malam tadi tak puas tido peluk Cik Khayra, sebab kol 4 pagi da bgn buat keje. Cik Khayra sekarang malam malam tido mesti sendal bawah ketiak umi. selagi tak rapat dia tolak badan dia sendiri, sampai dapat rasa badan umi. Manja cik Khayra ni...!

Yang kakak pun dah sama gitu gak. jealous la tu hehe. Abah cakap Umi keras sangat dengan kakak, kena tune sket bg lembut. yelah, cuba lah ni.

New sitter....

2007-04-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

Ummi dah kerja sejak beberapa minggu yg lalu. Tiba-tiba dipanggil untuk terus bekerja, tapi contract basis. Terkocoh-kocoh Ummi mencari babysitter sebab sitter yang lama dah ada baby kecik tanak amik yg baru... tapi since tak sempat dah dia terima jugak untuk sementara waktu.

Dia yg rekemenkan kakak baru ni last week. Umi n abah dah gi lawat umah dia, ground floor kali ni. hmm ok gak tu fobia umi anak jatuh balcony leh ilang cumanya byk nyamuk bila dah maghrib. hmm...

tadi tghari dah call... masing2 sounds ok, adik baru mandi n jazzy tgh main. oklah kot. tgklah balik karang... harap-harap diorang di tangan org yg sayang kat diorang sementara umi n abah keje... God be with em, aminnn.

3 weeks of Khayra :o)

2007-03-16T07:59:00.000+08:00

Ni Khayra masa 7 weeks...

Ni plak masa 8 weeks... dua bulan!

Haa... ni semalam... selepas berjaya mem'poopoo' setelah 3 hari tak 'poopoo' lega lah tu hahaha...

Since we introduced Khayra with formula feeding, poops became thicker. This is normal for formula fed babies. Mula-mula risau jugak, sampai 3 hari tak iyak aperhal Khayra ni? tapi tak meragam pun... tanya sana-sini, research dalam buku kat net, turns out it's normal. But though, parents could still help em to poop by doing some stuffs.

For 2 days i tried massagine her tummy. Well actually i always do dat it's a routine for me to massage her [using baby oil]. I also helped her with some exercises, for constipation parents could help babies by stretching and curling their legs, first stretch then pull it nearer to her chest, slowly. this will also help her to expell gas from her stomach. But if this two doesn't work, and you're worried, take an anal thermometer, smear some baby oil on it and gently push it in her anus. If u do not haf a thermometer [like me] what i did i took a small cotton bud [not the normal one, the SMALL one] and dip it into baby oil and push it gently. She pooped after the 2nd time i did that. hehe i could see her 'lega'ness. So mothers, try~!

D B'day Party [3rd March 2007]

2007-03-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

It was a happy day! [for em, for me it was damn tiring hehe]

Much thanx to those who came and made the party very much enjoyable for d kidz. My dear cousins, aunties, uncles, Achik n Kazens, Has and Family, Che Limah & Family, Kak Long... it was a good day. dari petang, membawak ke malam. Suppose to start 4.30 tapi terlajak sebab ramai tak dapat datang awal. Pastu yg kelakarnya, makan dulu baru tiup lilin sebab guests dah lapor :D. Here are some memoirs...

Guests!! Ramai la jugak... konon nak wat kecil-kecilan tapi end up meriah giler, best!

Around the Birthday Cakes~!

Banyaknye hadiahhh...

Alahai... Ummi letih masak... Khayra letih apa...? Letih Khayra layan tetamu hehe~ Ni Masa guests da balik tinggal aunties n kazens 5-6 ketol borak time for em, lepak time for me n Khayra. Lotih den~!

Tu dia.. meriah lah jugak yang seronok dat day d kidz lah lari sana sini, all d cousins ada, cukup korum diorang happy giler.

But apart from dat, malam real bithday 22nd February we did brought Jazzy for jalan n makan, kat mana lagi... Alamanda jela... hari bekerja takkan larat abahnya nak bawak jauh :op Mula- mula gi gunting rambut, dah lawa lawa tu bawak gi makan pizza, siap dapat free lagi ice cream pizza sebab bday Jazzy sama month ngan bday Pizza Hut hehe [alah, nama je makan pizza, yg abih mushroom soup je si Jazzy nih, masalah betol bab makan sekarang!]

Khayra... dua bulan dah..?!

2007-03-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

Lajunyaaaa...!!!!

Semalam Khayra check up for her 2nd month... kena injection. Terus demam petang semalam. Dahla demam, kena plak ikut Umminya gi interview... duduk kat kedai kopi ngan abah nangis nangis sampai abah terpaksa cerita kat tokei kedai tu mak dia gi interview kat atas... hehe.

berat dah 4.5kg. Nurse tu mula mula terkejut tgk berat Khayra sikit, dia tak perasan Khayra lahir LBW [Low Birth Weight] sekali bila tgk record dia kata "Ha, byk naik takpe bagus". Khayra kuat nyusu... memanglah hehe. And kami pun dah introduce Khayra to bottle feeding, Dumex Mamil Gold [mahal giler, tapi takpe nanti terlbih pandai cam kakaknya pun dulu minum susu yg sama masa kecik] sebab demand Khayra sukar untuk dipenuhi hehe. Apa apa hal pun, body Khayra still maintain tall n kiut hehe tak chubby sangat cam kakak.

Disebabkan ke-slim-an itu... Khayra meraung bila dicucuk semalam. Kakak dulu rilek je sebab byk daging, cucuk pun tak rasa. Tapi meraung kejap jela... lepas tu dia dok berkerut satu petang menahan sakit sampaikan abes kelingking Ummi dia isap isap untuk menenangkan diri [Khayra tak suka pacifier, penat je kami beli].

Hmm... tataula bila dapat upload gambar birthday party Kakak n Ateem... soon i hope... tunggguuuu..!

2007-03-09T13:25:00.001+08:00

banyak perkara yang dah berlaku lately yang deserved to be posted in here... but tak sempat2. antaranya b'day party Jazzy n Ateem [thanks to Has & Family also Achik & Kazen-kazen for coming n meriahkan majlis]... Khayra now being 8 weeks old [dah debok giler dah dia!]... hmmm..

terlalu banyak perubahan rutin sejak Khayra lahir... tanggungjawab sebagai ibu dan isteri semakin berat dan agak lelah dijalankan. terutama sekali ibu yang mengspoilkan anak-anak macam aku nih... bila dah spoil tak larat pulak nak layan, sampai asik naik radang ari-ari...

mungkin bila dah start bekerja nanti semua ni reda sikit dan blog ini akan kembalik menjadi aktif!

Anak sulung kami!

2007-02-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Birthday Bash Announcement!

2007-02-21T15:02:00.000+08:00

E'cehh b'day bash konon macam gila besar punya party je bunyiknya haha

tomorrow is Princess' b'day but kami nak buat party dia on d 3rd of March 2007 Saturday [ada org nak tumpang sekaki ke hehe 3 hari je lagi nak bday dia *wink kat achik*]. Party will be held kat umah my mother which is selang se blok je from my house pukul berapa belum confirm but most prolly petanglah, 2 onwards. i'll update later. semua [especially yang dah ada askar] dijemput hadir. please sms me ya confirmkan datang... :o)

Ummi rindu Kakak... :'o(

2007-02-15T14:20:00.000+08:00

Kakak dah pergi naik train gi Kedah visiting Uncle Ben n Aunty Awa with Nenek n Atuk malam tadi until Sunday... before naik train Kakak sempat makan dengan Ummi suapkan KFC.

Sunyi betul rumah ni Kakak tak ada. Takdek orang yang Ummi nak jeritkan, marahkan, larangkan... Takdek orang nak sepahkan umah... :'o((

Nasib baik Adik ada... kalau tak Ummi lemas dalam kebosanan dan kesedihan kat umah nih!!

Qaszryna One Month!! Check up 12 02 2007

2007-02-13T14:49:00.000+08:00

Dah one month dah!! semua orang tak terasa dia dah one month. Neither do we, the parents.

But the changes is very apparent. She's sooo chubby, hehe... sangat comel bila bangun pagi. dia comella, mak ayah dia sembap mata layan dia malam-malam :op

Summary of the check up [@ Klinik Kesihatan Precinct 9 - this time semua gomen, senang]

Tunggu giliran untuk nombor je dah 2 jam :op
Tunggu nak jumpa doktor lagi sejam [Khayra sempat beyak 3 kali]
Khayra now weighs 3.25 kg!!!! dah macam normal baby dah! huhu!!
Her height now is 52 cm
Head n Chest Circumference 34 cm
Khayra sangat sihat dan aktif!
Ummi diwajibkan amik one type of perancang keluarga, we opted for Norriday Pills kalau tak makan sehari pensan laaa, mak cik nih udahler pelupa, dah set kat jam dah ni ari ari pukul 8 malam
Operation Wound Ummi cantik dan sihat, tak lama lagi pulih sepenuhnya

12 March next appointment, ada Injection untuk Khayra dan more pills for Ummi.

Our Sweet 4 Weeks Old in Yellow Dress

2007-02-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

Aunty Liling belikan dress ni... comey tak..? :oD

Photo taken today :o))

Due Date!

2007-02-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

If not for my high BP, prolly me n Azam are now going berserk and chaos cus today is Khayra's actual due date!!

It's her due date... but she's already 3 weeks and 3 days old! *sigh* time flies huh? Today she's acting different then any other days, she sleeps less, especially after the clock struck 12.30 am last nite [the time she was born]. She didn't sleep until it was 3 am. Woke up again around 5.30 am, for half an hour. Then again around 7.45 am, then sleep again for 3 hours. 10.30 am until now, she barely sleeps.

Babies, aren't they amazing?

Taken jest now, 1.30 pm 5th February 2007.

Happy 3 weeks old... Precious!

2007-02-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

She's chubbier, happier, more demanding and ever more Precious! Thanks to Aunties and Uncles who came visiting, and of course the presents are wonderful! And jangan marah... umur 3 weeks Khayra dah pernah amik gambar kat studio, hehe. Gambar konvo Umi, mestila ada anak-anak Umi sekali :o) I'll post it when the gambar siap.

The Primadonna Sleeps... :o))

Ummi Pays Her First Visit to see Khayra in NICU... and days after

2007-01-31T08:06:00.000+08:00

continued from Precious Baby Part 3...

13 January 2007...
Doctors told me I'd be shifted back to ward 2B before lunch, but right after the rounds they did, a nurse came in smiling and asked "Puan dah boleh balik ward ya?" I smiled back and said yes. She immediately took off my catheter [ooh i hate dat part, d thingy stings!! even weeks after dat!] and another nurse pulled a wheel chair in. I was like, "Eh, dah boleh naik sekarang ke?" the nurses smile and told me the doctor already told em to prepare my shifting. After cleaning what needs to be cleaned, they helped me sit on the wheel chair. It was 8 am. They prepared the final documents, and I was ready to be transfered. one nurse was saying loudly, "Pn Iza kalau saya pergi butik bagi discount ya" I was like 'Mana plak diorang tau aku ada butik ni' then i remembered my Red Card [preggie moms must haf one] i'd written 'Pengurus Butik' as my job. hehe. i really don't know what my real job is [in Khayra's birth cert lagi plak, Suri Rumah huh bosan sungguh].

I was smiling all d way when they pushed me up. i think every nurses i met along d wat were thinking, 'dia ni tak sakit ke?'. Well of course i'm smiling, I'm gonna see my baby soon. I SMS Azam to come over ASAP [he must've been a bit annoyed with all those SMSes disturbing his sleep hehe].

When I reached the ward I was happy to see my familiar roommates' faces. Kak As and Kak Rose especially. it seemed Kak As has also delivered her 3rd baby the same day as I did but in the morning, Baby Nabil Ashrafi [whom later gave me a hard time to sleep, hehe] and Kak Rose who's been in the ward for 2 months and still waiting for her time to go under C-Section for Placenta Previa [really pity her, dah takdek life duduk spital]. The other bed, patients came n went, bersalin normal usually bleh balik d same day or early next morning, untung badan. I was greeted happily by Kak As n Kak Rose and we exchanged all our experiences and when they asked where's my baby i was almost into tears when i told em what happened to her. And almost that instant Azam came in, and asked if i'm ready to see Khayra. Forgetting my wound, I got up almost immediately, OUCH! and Azam went out to get a wheel chair.

He pushed my down to NICU [Neonatal Intensive Care Unit]. I was so nervous, in my mind i had various pictures of how my baby would lie down in there with drips on her... and how small she would look like... When we reach the NICU we hadta take off our shoes and wear provided slippers [i didn't hafto, i had only socks] and sanitize our hands with a special sanitizer, and wear plastic apron. There were so many babies, mostly very very very small in size, they were in incubators, ventilators but some are only in a normal bassinet but most of them had drips on. Some haf UV lights on top of em. The nurses here wears the same blue uniform as they wear in OT and Labour Room, the ones in wards wear the normal white ones. I watched one by one babies as Azam wheeled me to one corner of the huge room. And from far i could sense my baby is nearer to me. Motherly instinct, yes we do haf it, no one can deny dat. When we reached Khayra...

She's small... wrapped in a green blanket, sleeping calmly in a bassinet. I was afraid to touch her. My heart was throbbing fast, i want to smile but i also feel sad, seeing her like that. She's been birthed 2 days but had never felt a mother's hug. Azam called her name and she responded waggling her limbs. As if knowing what I was thinking, a nurse asked me if i want to breastfeed her. I said "Can I?" she said "Of course" and she put Khayra in my lap, for the first time, I was so happy and was already in tears. We went to the breastfeeding room and I get to breastfeed her for the 1st time! No, I can't describe the feeling, not in words. We took pictures of her as so many people are waiting to see how she looks like, her grannies, her aunties and uncles... but cameras are actually prohibited in NICU, we brought it anyway, hehe. We spent about half an hour there in NICU, as lunch time has already arrived, I hadta get back to the ward. I kissed Khayra goodbye and promised her I'd be back in the evening. The nurse put her back into her bassinet and i cried as Azam wheeled me out of NICU, unwanting to be parted from my Precious.

at 2.00 pm a nurse told me Khayra has been given her 1st BCG immunisation. Azam went back home to pick Jazz up who hasn't seen me for 2 days, and brought Mein n Ateem along. When they arrived we went back to NICU, with Mein, Jazz n Ateem waiting outside the room. Reaching Khayra, we were shocked to see her back on drip. I went out to check on Jazz, and Oh My God Jazz's lips was bleeding quite badly, Main told me she fell while running around the waiting room. I hurried Azam who were still inside to see about it Azam was a bit angry with Jazz and said he'll bring her to Emergency later. As Khayra's condition isn't dat good we went back in. The peaditrician was there, and explained to us that her blood sugar level has dropped again and they were not too happy with that. She's not responding to the treatment so they had to get her back on drip and she is to be fed Nil by Mouth [fast]. She was explaining and explaining but i couldn't concentrate. I just asked how long will Khayra be fasting, she said until her blood sugar stables. Then I asked what causes it, she told me it's because of my blood pressure, my own blood sugar level wasn't enuff so she was deprived of it during the pregnancy. Yeap, I was the cause. I was devastated... i can't breastfeed her again... until she's stable and I caused her to be in that condition. The peaditrician told me to pump my milk and keep it in storage so once she can be fed, they can give her the breastmilk. I only nodded. Azam was asking if its because i was stressed out since I was doing my final semester and stuffs to the doctor but she said no, usually this kinda thingy is genetic.

I wheeled myself to Khayra and stare at her weak body for a long long time. I didn't respond to Azam's callings, because i was in tears again. I know i had to be rational that all happenings are beyond my control and it's God's will, but still I can't help thinking dat I am still the cause. Azam said let's go cus we haf another kid to worry about, Jazz is bleeding badly outside. Azam brought me back to d ward while he brought Jazz to emergency. Since it was the 1st day of my release, i had many visitors that evening. Achik, Mama, Papa & Kak Een. Ala kira many la tu kan hehe. Glad to see them. So glad. I really appreciate their company, at least i could share my burden with em, especially with Achik.

Jazzy n Azam came back to d ward at 7 pm. OMG she had one stitch on the lips! *sigh* My BP raised that evening, thinking too much of my babies. Azam kept on telling me not to think about it too much, and my roommates told me to stay calm. High BP means no going back home yet! That night I get to see Khayra again before Azam went back home. Like every other time, I'd cry everytime I see her small body on drip. This time I touched her all i want, I kissed her hand, I sang her lullaby and told her to get well soon.

14 January 2007... As predicted I can't go back home yet. my BP didnt chart nicely and my urine still has traces of albumin. it maybe resulted from worrying bout Khayra n Jazzy and also Nabil's crying last nite hehe i really dun wanna blame the baby but i really didn't sleep at all last nite. i got outta bed before anyone else in d ward does, i cleaned myself up as early as 6.00 am, i asked the nurses for a new gown before they even get to distribute it to the patients and while waiting for the doctor i read yesterday's newspaper that Azam left for me. Doctor pulled of my wound's plaster that morning and i laid down while chatting with my roommates and waiting for Azam to come and push me to NICU again to see Khayra. As usual, shoes off, hand sanitized and apron on. Khayra's bassinet has been moved, but she's now under UV light as she has jaundice. and nurses told us she could already be breastfed but not directly as the milk has to be limited to 10 ml or else she'd be overfed, so i hurriedly SMSed mama to bring a breastpump dat afternoon. I got a bit happier! We went upstairs to wait for the breastpump and pumped her milk for her afternoon feeding.

Along, Kak Een, Kak Cia, Syahril & Majidah also all their kids came visiting later on. After their visit we went to send Khayra's milk down to NICU. yes, u can imagine how my days were in the hospital. I was supposed to rest, recover, and gain strenght but i didn't do all dat. I went up n down to n fro NICU and ward, i cried a lot, i ddin't sleep... but at least after Khayra got better i was a bit relieved. I get to breastfeed Khayra again that night, before Azam went home, cus doctor has already pulled off her drip. Alhamdulillah! lega sangat dapat peluk Khayra lagi. I took the chance to really hug and caress her. She looked so calm and content. They limited the breastfeeding time to 20 mins, so i made full use of the 20 mins. Khayra sipped her milk nicely and i get to burp her for d first time. When I went back to the ward, I had my first good night's sleep, that i didn't woke up when nurse cam in to take my BP!

15 January 2007...
I could feel that it's gonna be a beautiful day. I woke up at 5.30 am and cleaned myself up. brushed my teeth, wiped my body with wet cloth, changed my hospital gown and as usual seat on the chair reading newspaper while having my no-salt breakfast. My albumin reading that morning has cleared up. my BP is fine. and during the rounds, doctor said, "ok, release her" i dunno whether to feel happy... or sad, cus Khayra's status is still unknown. They told me if Khayra's not discharged, they could arrange for a bed for me to be with Khayra in NICU. owh... ok, i didn't know dat and I so want that! So when Azam came later on we went to NICU and checked with the nurse if there's an empty bed for me there, but they told us... Khayra might be able to be discharged today if her jaundice level gets below 250. We hadta wait for the result and i was praying dat she'd be alright.

1.00 pm - Azam was handling my discharge and payment when mama called and asked if i want her to come over and help me carry the bags as i hafta carry d baby. i was like, "eh baby? baby bleh kluar ke?" mama said Azam already SMSed her dat both of us are discharged. Owh u can't imagine how happy i was! after disconnecting the call, I hurriedly changed into my own outfit and laid down. When Azam came, "uih, mana tau bleh balik? tak sabar-sabar" i chuckled as i told him mama called me and told me. It wasn't long when both mama n papa arrived and we picked Khayra up in NICU. i dressed her in her new ovesized t-shirt and pants and held her tightly home....

17 days... Khayra's jaundice already passed the safe level... yeay!

2007-01-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

Now we could hear she cries more, especially last 2 nites. While I am very drowsy because of flu medicine, Khayra stayed awake till it was almost two, since 11 am. punyala lama tu. So since i was very very drowsy, I surrendered at 12 am, let her tgk bola with her Abah, then at 1.30 am i took over bila Abahnya dah tak larat nak bukak mata. Dah nak dekat 2 am baru dia tido. Then bangun balik 3.45 am, feeding sambil mata dia pejam, 15 mins je, tataula dia kenyang ke tak sebenarnya, mengantukla tu sebelum tu dah lama sedar. Agaknya tak berapa kenyang kot, pukul 5 pagi bangun lagi menyusu. And also the next two hours, 7 am.

Itu cerita malam. Siang?

Siang semasa Umi ni segar bugar, Khayra tidoooooooo!!! especially lepas Umi mandikan, sedapnya dia tido amboi amboi. Yang Uminya plak amat menghairankan susah betul nak lelap mata siang sekarang nih. Eventho malam tak cukup tido. last last karang start Maghrib pening kepala. Ari ari macam ni. Rutin.

Tadi Khayra kena cucuk lagi... tapi alhamdulillah kali ni sekali cucuk dah keluar darah untuk dikumpul dalam tabung uji kecik tu. kali ni Umi serah kat Abah suruh pegang, Umi menyorok belakang dinding, kalo tak maunya rebas lagi airmata Umi tgk Khayra kena cucuk. Umi focus kat kakak yang melasak tak tentu hala. pening Umi dengan kakak ni, tatau nak jadik apa, makin hari makin lasak, macam boy dah.

After amik darah Umi ngan Khayra jumpa doctor. Umi jumpa sebab tangan Umi asik kebas, ingatkan masa pregnancy je, ni dah bersalin pun camtu jugak. Doctor bg calcium je. Khayra? Alhamdulillah... Khayra punya bilirubin level dah 135, dah selamat betul dah. Syukur. Doctor kata umur Khayra sebulan baru check lagi, oklah tu at least lambat lagi, tgn Khayra pun akan besar dan vein nya pun dah senang dicucuk.

Nak sangat resume cerita Khayra @ NICU, belum sempat sempat jugak. esok kot. tengoklah eh....

Being a woman ain't EASY!

2007-01-25T14:52:00.000+08:00

took a quiz in iVillage.com and here's what it says...
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It sounds like you have a case of the "baby blues." You're not alone: The postpartum period is a time of transition and the post-baby blues affect 70 to 85 percent of new moms. It usually begins within three days of giving birth and can last up to two weeks, going away on its own with rest and support. Postpartum depression, which affects around 10 percent of moms in the year after giving birth, is more intense and must be present for more than two weeks to distinguish it from the more general baby blues.

If you find you are having symptoms of postpartum depression, such as feelings of depression, sadness, exhaustion or helplessness that are affecting your day-to-day life and last for more than two weeks after you give birth, or if you have any thoughts of harming yourself or your baby, be sure to talk to your care provider right away so that you can get the treatment you need.

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Well, i sure don't haf any thoughts of harming Khayra or Jazz or myself or even Azam but i do haf sumkinda nervousness from time to time. I hope this will be over soon.

Sorry i haven't got the time to finish my Hospital Experience write-ups, having two kids sure is making me a lot busier than before. I haf little time to rest, barely sleep at nite in fear i won't wake up to Khayra's feeding time, and during d day since Azam's already resumed working i hafta take care of Jazz n Khayra both, Syamin's around to help some of d time though. Also of course, i'm taking care of myself, the woman in confinement.

More of Khayra n Family

2007-01-20T11:03:00.000+08:00

Dah Seminggu...

2007-01-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

Kita pause kejap cerita Umi dan Khayra di hospital. Tak dan nak menaip :o)

Dah seminggu dah... rasa macam baru lagi perut Umi kena belah. Dalam seminggu ni, Khayra byk mengubah cara hidup Umi dan Abah. Umi sangat-sangat tenang bila berdepan dengan Khayra, ketenangan Khayra really affect Umi in so many ways.

Abah dah bayar nazar dia siang tadi. Abah nazar kalau Khayra sihat cepat dan keluar dari NICU, dia akan cukur kepala dia. hehe Abah dah botak. Bila Abah balik dari barber petang tadi, dua-dua anak dia yang baru bangun tido terkebil-kebil pandang Abah, 'Betulke Abah aku nih?' agaknya dalam hati diorang. Jazzy yang mamai pun terkebil-kebil, Khayra yang bangun nak menyusu, yang kenal sangat suara Abahnya pun berkerut-kerut hehe.

Abah dan kepala licinnya :op~

We haf bidans coming to our house, dah dua kali, kelebihan bersalin di hospital kerajaan. diorang datang check BP, rahim dan luka Umi and Khayra's well-being. Khayra still has a bit of jaundis, so dah dua kali kami kena bawak Khayra pegi check darah. Ya Allah size Khayra dah la kecik, kena cucuk cucuk sana sini... meruntun hati Umi. Airmata Umi sangat murah bila berdepan dengan kes anak-anak. Vein Khayra sangat kecik, plus Khayra dah terlampau byk kena cucuk, nurse tu pun dah berkerut-kerut muka nak amik darah Khayra. Jaundis level dia tak sampai tahap bahaya, tapi still tinggi. Monday kena pegi lagi... isk... menangis lagilah Umi! Abah dah tegur Umi asik menangis ajer malu kat orang, tapi...

Tapi situation Khayra sikit sebanyak datang dari Umi. Umi punya BP yang tinggi, tu sebab Umi kena keluarkan Khayra awal. Sebab Umi Khayra jaundis, saiz kecik n low sugar level. Jadi rasa bersalah Umi takleh nak ilang, however Umi try to be rational. Umi dah cuba redha, I told myself ni takdir dan dugaan Allah pada Umi dan Abah tapi...

Banyaknya tapi... perasaan Umi selalu meruntun sekarang ni. Mana lagi Jazzy yang demand attention also, she obviously feels threatened. She loves her sister, we can see, but she has tantrums dat could make us go berserk with her. Lepas tu masalah hormon tak stabil Umi still there, Umi masih rasa tak sedap ati selalu. Entahlah...

Tapi Khayra Qaszryna... bila Khayra is solemnly in my embrace i feel so serene. Khayra banyak bezanya dari si Kakak. Khayra jarang menangis, selalu senyum senyum. There's sumthing in her eyes, dat i can't explain, whenever i look into it, i feel so peaceful inside. I guess lain baby lain rezeki yang di bawa pada parentsnya...

Dah seminggu... and now dah masuk tahun baru. Ahlan Muharram. I hope for the best in this new year. to u guys too.

Precious Baby -:Part Three:-

2007-01-18T11:13:00.000+08:00

It was the longest night i had in years. After returning from Operation Theater to the labour room, nurses put 3 blankets on me and around my head cus of the severe shivering. Blood loss and cold air, made the shiver worst. I heard Dr. Fawas announced my blood loss was 200, i'm not sure if dat's good, bad or normal.

A few moments after returning to the labour room, the new Abah of TWO came in and kissed me on my forehead... It was a bliss bliss moment. I'm sure lying down like dat, with all those 'sembapness' and painful look i didn't look to pretty to be kissed but he did. He told me Khayra's doing very fine, dah iqamat and kenal nama dia. He called her name and she responded to his voice; maybe cus she's been called Khayra eversince she's in the womb. He also told me he wants to go home soon, to give Khayra's placenta to my dad to be 'kebumi' and to prepare the house for Khayra's arrival. I told him go... go get some sleep cus we don't know what's in for us in the next few days. It's like... i already felt 'tak sedap hati' especially when nurse announced Khayra's weight was only 2.1 kg.

As i said earlier... it was a long long night. I was shivering bad and fell asleep for a couple of hours before waking up feeling the operation wound's pain coming in and very very thirsty. 6 hours before and after surgery is to haf NO FOOD or DRINKS. one of suckiest part of a surgery and i knew it too well. It's like a feeling of deja vu, Jazz's labour and my previous appendix removal, both felt the same way. THIRSTY & PAINFUL! i kept on asking the nurses who came in and out to check my readings "Nurse dah pukul berapa? Dah boleh minum?" and I'll receive the same answer "Belum Puan, rehatlah, pagi esok baru boleh minum" or "Puan dari tadi tak tido ke?" if the nurses tried to avoid my 'drinking' questions. Kesian nurse nurse tu, dapat patient tak paham bahasa hehe.

I could only drink at 8 am the next morning, itupun dapat air suam sahaja, no food yet. tepat pkl 8 nurse dah datang bagi air, paham agaknya aku dah haus macam nak mati. Abah came in around 12 am, lambat sikit katanya sebab mengemas dan mencuci cot anak. As if all had been planned, once abah arrived he's been called upstairs by a nurse. "Encik, diorang panggil naik atas, anak kena admit NICU [Neonatal Intensive Care Unit]". AGAIN my jantung felt like nak gugur, "Why?!" i almost screamed. "Kami tak sure Puan, orang atas yang panggil". Azam looked at me and told me to rest and not to worry. How could i NOT be?? i tried to take my mind off it by sending SMSes to mum, Achik, Mummy Melaka n Yana. Take my mind off it??!! all the SMSes was ABOUT it. I can't rest. My BP went up n down. Nurses looked at me in worried look. Doctors came in and out. A few moments after going upstairs i received and SMS from Azam "Khayra kena admit NICU sebab saiz dia kecik sangat and pink sugar level dia rendah so Doktor Pakar nak observe". I was already in tears.

Azam missed his Friday prayers arranging Khayra's transfer to NICU. He returned to me around noon and told me the details. Khayra's not in an incubator, but on drips. *sigh* both mother and daughter going through the same thing. we're both on drips. but I am 27 years old, Khayra's barely a few hours old, i couldn't bare thinking of the uncomfortness she's going through. I asked d doctor when am I going back to the ward, doctor said at least one more night of careful observation here, dat is, if my BP go stable, i urinate a lot and I can get up by myself so they can take off the catheter [urine pipe] so i can walk to the bathroom by myself. Another deja vu. I remembered i was a bit 'manja' during Jazz's surgery and had only got outta bed after two days. but now, i set my heart to get up as soon as i can, so i can go to see Khayra. she is all i can think off at that moment. if last nite was the longest nite, that day was the longest day... the day of my new daughter's birthday, Friday January 12th, 2007.

I could receive no visitor since I'm in the labour room for intensive observation. I only had my patient Azam with me. It surprises me how calmly he's taking this situation. I could see that he is tired, he prolly gets as little sleep as i did too. I thank God, although it wasn't an easy moment for both of us, but we're very patient going through it. Maybe my faith to Him paid off. I prayed to Him every second i could dat i recover well so i can tkae care of Khayra, get her to a normal state as soon as possible. Owh how i long to hug her! I haven't seen her since last time in OT.

That nite was another long night but i had a determination to get well tomorrow and get out of bed. I tried very hard to sleep. 13 January 2007, 5 am in the morning, a very kind nurse [i could never forget her] Nurse Suria Eliaty came into my room and gave me some words of motivations. She said it's her duty to change my hospital gown and clean my bed, but it is good if i can get down on my feet, try to at least sit down on a chair, so doctors will decide that I am well enuff to be transfered back to the ward. I said yes, i very much wanna do just dat. I asked her to help me, and i apologize beforehand cus it's gonna be very very slow. She raised my upper bed, lowered the height, and I tried very very hard to ignore my wound's pain as I step down on the floor. She was smiling, she said she never see anyone so determine to get up. I told her i wanna see my baby in the NICU, she said no wonder and encouraged me dat i can do it, and i DID! i didn't just sat on a chair, i even went to the toilet! She was so happy for me, I was moved by her patience and kind-heartedness. I sat on the chair while she changed my bedsheet with a fresh one, she helped me wear my maternity pad and hospital gown, she tied my hair up high, as if she opened a salon in that labour room. another nurse came in with a gasp, and she boasted to her "Tengok patient aku dah bangun, dah pegi bilik air" and dat nurse was smiling too. I felt proud!! So now i am NOT AFRAID of another C-section after this. i know i can recover well!

It's true, u need to move to recover from operation wound. U can't just lie there like a dead meat. After the success i went back to bed and who knows, it was the best sleep i had in days! Lega sangat-sangat. kaki dah tak cramp, i could feel blood moving in my veins again. And alhamdulillah, doctors agreed i could go back to the ward BEFORE lunch and could request a wheel chair to visit Khayra in NICU. with dat news, i SMSed Azam to come ASAP, as i can't wait to see Khayra!

to be continued...

P/S: I hope pembaca setia blog ni tak bosan baca cerita-cerita ini, cus i wanna keep record of every single thing dat happened to us in those testing moments!

Khayra Qaszryna -:Part Two:-

2007-01-17T11:53:00.000+08:00

As they arrange my case to transfer to the labour room, i tried to keep calm. i told myself everything will be alright and felt so relieved i get to recite Surah Maryam and Surah At-Taubah earlier while resting in the afternoon. I told Azam to meet me in the labour room, he sound a bit panicked when he heard the 'labour room' word. Both of us least expected labour will start today.

About 6.20 pm i was already wired with drip-lines, blood pressure auto-meter, pulse-meter, pendek kata segala-gala wayar. So uncomfortable but... for baby, anything will do. My blood pressure was measured every 15 mins. It didn't go down to a safe level. I continue feeling nauseated and dizzy. Then, around 7.00 pm I felt my heartburn is beginning to reach my throat. i told the nurses immediately and again red alert, doctors rushed in, looking worried. "Puan, if this is the case i think it is not good to prolong pregnancy" she said. I knew that was coming, then i asked "So, kena induce ke doctor?" she gave me 'the look' and said "Your condition is getting worst, i dun think we can wait that long, the best is to do C-Section" and there it goes, my blood pressure went ALL THE WAY UP. Another Cesarean?!! that means...

That means i'll only haf 3 children, max 4.

I tried to hold back my tears. I think both doctors saw my waryness and one of em asked me "Anak pertama Ceasar juga ke Puan?" I could only nod. She continued "Puan, BP Puan tinggi sangat, kita takut kalau tunggu lagi, Puan bleh kena seizure (sawan), atau pening yang teruk atau macam-macam lagi risiko. Bila keadaan dah macam tu, bukan Puan saja yang bahaya, anak pun ikut bahaya sekali" I nodded again, unable to utter a word. Azam still hasn't reach the labour room he went to Surau first, I long to talk to him about this decision. It's like... no other option. Honestly, I did feel guilt, will Azam blame me for falling into this predicament? Oh forget Azam, I am blaming myself already!! "Doctor, what causes this? Why is my BP high?" that wasn't the 1st time i asked that question. i already knew the answer. the other doctor went explaining it's caused my genetics, not food, not environment and asked if my mom n dad has hypertension. I told em my grandpa had it. Azam came in moments later. doctors told him about the choice we don't have and he asked for a moment to talk to both our parents. Both parents called and everybody agreed, let's go n potong my belly.

I signed the papers. they left me n Azam alone while waiting for my turn to go into Operation Theater (OT). they had to wait 6 hours after my the last thing fed into my stomach at 5.30pm, a sandwich. It was cold, uncomfortable and uneasy wait. When it was only me n Azam there in the room, I asked him to hold my hand and cried. I asked him why has it to be this way, another Cesar and only 3 kids to bear. He frowned and told me not to think of such things, other people dun even haf kids and we're lucky to haf what we haf now. He told me i should be thankful to God that at least we're in good hands and the doctors and nurses are taking good care of us. I guess i was being irrational, and tried to calm myself down again. Azam sat there waiting as i began feeling weak, they already gave my a drip to lower my BP. the drip made me feel funny and my head stopped spinning but the pain is still there. I tried to sleep to gather my strength. Around 10pm Azam went waiting outside, i told him to get some rest, but i dun think he did.

I was awakened around 11.50 pm when nurses was buzzing around me preparing to push me into OT. they wold me i was already summoned, i asked em if they see Azam around they told me not to worry as they will alert him. 12.00 am we reached the OT, Dr. Fawas, my anaesthetician told me the procedures that i am very familiar with, underwent it with Jazz's labour. I had to signed another paper after he examined me for fever and flu. 12.15 am, into the labour room and operation started 5 mins later and my O&G doctor was Dr. Marsha.

Labour room was VERY VERY VERY cold. i was shaking quiet badly and they had to get a blower (to blow hot air) to keep my warm, but it didn't worked that well. i was shivering through the entire operation. I could feel my belly shaken and pushed, and around 12.30 am, i could hear the first voice of my Khayra Qaszryna which a few seconds later turned into a loud cry. I was like... Alhamdulillah... that's my Khayra. Owh she was crying well, i was very relieved to hear her cry. they straight away brought her to the cleaning room as Dr. Marsha took out the placenta and stitched me back up. Yeah I know, I'm telling this story as if I saw the whole procedure, no i didn't i could just feel it. But since this is not my 1st Cesar and i am very well self-educated in it, i knew exactly what was going on minute-by-minute. all the readings and video-viewing payed well.

Nurse who cleaned Khayra up came in minutes later, "Puan, tgk anak Puan" she showed my Khayra's gender. "Puan, anak 2.1 kg saja" I was... 2.1?? but... the last ultrasound estimated 2.6kg! Doctors and nurses saw my worried look "It's ok, we'll see to her, now you stay calm" Dr. Fawas said to me. I was pushed to post-OT room afterwards and pushed back to the labour room at 1.50 am.

to be continued...

My heart throbs... Khayra Qaszryna :o)) -:Part One:-

2007-01-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

I prayed to God a lot, for the smoothness of my labour and safety and wellness of my baby. God answered my prayer. Alhamdulillah!!

Yes, as Hubby posted earlier, there were complications and me n baby were both under intensive care for a while, but... now things are going so smoothly, and I never felt this happy, having Khayra Qaszryna bt Azamzairi back home with me. We were released 15th January after my blood pressure gets a bit low and my albumin level in my urine gets a bit better and Khayra's jaundis subsided and her blood sugar level became stable. Khayra, tho she is small in size my is very well while me, I am stable enuff to stay at home and hafta go and check my blood pressure in case i do haf hypertension every other day in a nearby clinic.

As posted the day before, i had an appointment with Hospital Putrajaya after being referred by my usual MO on the 11th of January 2007. I went there, they ran the usual tests; blood pressure and urine test. My blood pressure was high 146/98 but my albumin in urine wasn't too bad but due to previous traces of albumin in my record, they decided that I should be admitted to the ward for careful observation, as they say i'm having symptoms of Pre-Eclampsia (PE) and might need to be induced if my blood pressure do not go down to a safe level. So i had to go straight into the ward, thank God i had mine and baby's bag all packed-up and ready so Azam just had to fetch and bring em to d hospital. It was afternoon when i reached Ward 2B Bed 26, they told me to rest before they ran another BP messuring, it went down a little. Azam came back to the ward with Jazz later around 5 pm, and i tried to rest. I was told to watch out for blurry visions, nausea, and severe headache. Around 6 pm, i began feeling nauseated and having my head spun like i'd jest been to a disco. I told Azam to tell the nurses, there and then a doctor rush in to check me up and test my BP again. Another urine test taken, my albumin level raised a bit and BP had gone up to 160/100.

It was like red alert, nurses and doctors suddenly became a bit busier then the calmness of the ward before (after delivery, i found the calmness BORING). Suddenly a bed (to push ppl to labour room) came into our room of four, my heartbeat raised. I was like, is it time? Is dat bed for me? All of sudden my thoughts drifted to my impatient-ness of my pregnancy lately. Has those been the signs? True enuff, the bed is for... ME. Azam who went home earlier to send Jazz back in case of anything, was alerted through my SMSes. I was pushed to labour room, without having the chance to meet Azam first. I was only 36 weeks and 2 days pregnant...

to be continued...

World, Please Welcome Our Newest Member "KHAYRA QASZRYNA"

2007-01-12T11:06:00.000+08:00

She was born last nite on Friday (Penghulu Segala Hari) 12 January 2007 at 12.30 am, weighing only 2.1KG, Zaza had to underwent a Cesarean process to deliver the baby due to some complication as her blood pressure was high and it was contaminated with "albumin" (not sure how to spell it), so Dr advise we can no longer wait as other complicated and major issue might arise later.

Held a short discussion between myself and the Zaza at the labour room then we decide to proceed hoping for the best and alhamdulillah, all praise to the MIGHTY ALLAH for HIS blessing and listening to our prayer, the operation went smooth without any hiccups . Zaza is currently recuperating at Wad 2B Hospital Putrajaya and the baby is well (details nanti mak dia letak entry).

p/s: this entry is done by the Husband and PROUD father of KHAYRA QASZRYNA

Duhai Anakanda...

2007-01-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

Ayuhai anakanda yang Umi kandungi
Sesungguhnya Umi dah tak larat menanti lagi
Setiap kali perut Umi menegangkan musclenya
Umi terasa macam anakanda nak kluar
Tapi tak kluar kluar jugakkkk

Ayuhai anakanda
Puaslah Umi bawak bawak berjalan ke Alamanda, mengemop umah...
Yang dapat sakit belakang
Anakanda tak turun turun juga
Seronok ya, duduk dalam perut Umi??

Anakanda,
Sesungguhnya Umi inginkan petanda
Bila agaknya anakanda nak kluar ni
Nanti Umi nak beli tiket konvo
Sekali tgk dapat pegi
Kasik can la Umi sarung jubah itam tu
Dulu kat UTM punya Umi tak dapat nak sarung...

Anakanda yang Umi kasihi
Umi tau anakanda seronok duduk dalam perut Umi
Sebab hari-hari dapat makan karipap frozen yang Umi kemaruk tu
Takpe Umi janji nanti anakanda keluar,
Umi rajin-rajin susukan anakanda
Sama jugak... dapat jugak anakanda rasa apa yang Umi makan

Anakanda,
Esok kita nak ke Hospital Putrajaya lagi
Apa kata anakanda amik kesempatan itu untuk menurunkan kepala anakanda ke pelvik umi?
Semua orang dah tak sabar tunggu anakanda
Bukan Umi sorang je... Nenek ari-ari dah telefon bertanya
Kekanda Jazzmeen pun dah perli-perli Umi
Betahnya 'Tengok baby Bawang Putih dah keluar, baby Umi tak kluar-kluar lagi' semalam
Abah pun asik asik bertanya-tanya, sampai call-call dari opis kalau Umi tak online
Aunty Achik pun dah ternanti-nanti
Aunty Yana pun dah tepuk-tepuk perut Umi
Aunty Mein takyah citerler apertah lagi...
Seronok agaknya anakanda ya... bila ramai yang menanti...

9 months :: I'm getting impatient!!

2007-01-09T12:07:00.000+08:00

urrgghhh!! waiting is sickening!

So hard trying to get my mind off from the labour now. I've been trying to take my mind off it by playing games like Sudoku and SimCity, but whenever i lie down to rest, my mind can't be at ease!

what makes it worst is the anxiety and fears. Fear of birth pain, or complications. and of course, the government hospital. i hope everything will turn out fine, but i can't help feeling anxious. i pray to God everyday to keep me calm and and content and help me be patient.

*sigh* it's so harrdd...!!

Hospital Kerajaan...

2007-01-08T10:42:00.000+08:00

Hehe... apasal tajuk tu? macam jahat je bunyik dia kan hehe. Baru balik dari hospital putrajaya ni...

Ngantuknyaaaa takut ramai orang pagi-pagi dah kena pegi spital. sekali tgk tak ramai pun, tapi masih lama kat situ. kenapa ya? hehe. takleh berenti gelak. terlebih gula kot ni. hehe.

arini takdek doctor... so diorang set appointment untuk ari khamis, 11 Januari 2007. hmm... nak buat appointment pun kena pegi 2 tempat, tunggu menunggu, and spend 1 hour there. servis ok, nurse baik-baik, cumanya slow. tulah nak komplen sgt pun... spital awam so itu pasal yang takleh berenti senyum. lambatnya bukan apa, mungkin kecekapan tu kurang, dari segi taip-menaip, click-mengclick, soal-menyoal... lambat kat situ je, tapi bezanya membawa ke banyak banyak minit sebab draggy!

so khamis ni kena pegi spital lagi. hospital itu teman karibku. hehe. gila. hehe.

Check Up 7th January 2007

2007-01-07T14:57:00.000+08:00

[070107] Nice Date!

Well... Khayra's fine. Size ok, up to her age, or maybe just slightly lighter. Position ok, head down, haven't engaged... Yeah, she's just fine!

But I am not.

My urine still got problems. Albumin's there, still, and it's still quite high. Now doctor's worried of my kidney function, and asked if i have had family history of high blood pressure. She wants me to be referred to the specialist AGAIN. AARRGHHH!!!! our allocation for specialists are used up, so she said i should go to Hospital Putrajaya, yes, again. AAAAA!!! AAAA!!!! AAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Apa niii!!

So... we're going to Hospital Putrajaya tomorrow. dunno how will dat turn out. The doctor jest now said i'd prolly be referred to a Neferlogist [heck i dunno wat dat is or i spelt it right]. So, i'm getting ready to wait long hours at dat hospital and being pushed around. *sigh* This is bad bad bad for my emotional state!

Too young a babysitter!!

2007-01-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

To ppl who watched the news yesterday [and 999, or read newspaper today] would've prolly heard bout a babysitter's husband who killed baby Mohd Airell Azim who is only 8 months old with a pillow [suffocating him], JUST BECAUSE the baby couldn't stop crying.

When i heard the news, at first i was devastated, how could you do such thing to a infant who doesn't know anything?!! Furthermore, you're PAID to take a good care of him! But when the newscaster voice out the age of the babysitter and her husband, i was like... Hah, no wonder!

Ok, I was a young mother. i was only 23 when i had Jazz, and it is said that women mature faster then men. Now, the murderer's age is 23. To my experience, I remembered being furious towards my own few days old baby who couldn't stop crying especially at night. With my C-Section wound still pounding, it was quite annoying ALTHOUGH i am her MOTHER. I tried to be patient with Jazz, but when i got impatient, me n hubby would get into fighting. But As we age we began to be 'immune' with Jazz's shouting, screaming and crying. Sumtimes we could just ignore her screamings for hours, yes, hours.

Now, back to the baby's story. The guy is 23, his wife is 22. hmm... Does this couple EVEN HAS A BABY OF THEIR OWN?! man, i doubt. [update: they do haf one child, ONE] I know this may sound awkward, but i partly blame the parents, why sent the infant to such young couple?! ok i know i know even old ppl sumtimes dera budak, but the younger the age is, the more likely the person to be panas baran, moreover at night, when they're tired after a day's work. But yeah, malang tak berbau. or prolly the parents had no other options opened. Of course, the parents' fault is too teeny-weeny compared to the cold-blooded murder done by that 23 years old man. However berserabut ur kepala is, or however big ur problems are, it doesn't give u the right to kill sumone else's infant, or put it this way, killing another makhluk Allah! Gila ke?!

*sigh* so many cases of babysitters lately. i thank God that we rarely have problems with Kak Zan [Jazz's babysitter], we sent Jazz to her since she was one year and 3 months. Now Jazz is almost four, apart from slight cleanliness problems, we never had any big issues with her. bertambah gemuk and spoilt lagi aderlah budak tu. Tapi risau jugak ni, dah sebulan lebih Jazz ni duduk umah, nanti nak anta semula sure meraung-raung. I've been reminding her dat she's going back to her mama's [she calls Kak Zan mama] house once Khayra is birthed to take care of Khayra there when i'm off to work. she'd scream her lungs out 'TANAK!!'. yeap. DIE.

The 2nd day of 2007, Itsa wet ZOO day!

2007-01-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

long hols makes Jazz bored being at home. so her dad decided to take her to d zoo, AGAIN.

it nearly rained when we were on d way, but upon reaching the place, it poured! oh luckyness! but redah ajer, dah masuk. since we've been here for like a zillion times (hehe bohong giler, baru 3 kali sejak ada Jazz) so malas nak describe. well yelaa... kita dah biasa, Jazzy yang seronok. Jazzy loves animals, especially fish. bila dah on the way home first thing yang dia ingat to kecoh-kecohkan were the fishes. pastu ikan kecik2 dia tak heran, ikan yang besar gedabak tu yang paling dia ingat. and since i've been teaching her colors during my homebound, she's describing all the colours of the animals she could remember. Good. at least the wetness of the zoo gave her a good learning time.

SOOO tired! but i didn't mind the walk, although sakit gila belakang ni. cus walking dah nak masuk 9 mths ni, dah takyah risau pasal bersalin early sangat. walking is good for the birthing process. cumanya saper suruh gemuk, tu pasalla sakit belakang. Despite our tiredness, after the zoo trip abah decided to buy his precious daughter some more coloring books. kat umah bukan tak ada, tapi semuanya dah abih si Princess colorkan. So we went to Chip Lee Kajang in pursuit of some coloring books and jigsaw puzzle [also another of Jazz's latest indulgence] but jigsaw puzzle yang available only yang 1000 pieces, tak sesuaiiii although I was soo tempted to buy hehe. heeiippppp, hafta thing rationally, better save money for jamu bersalin than buying a jigsaw puzzle dat Jazz can't play. jest bought two coloring books for her, then pegi makan my fav briyani at warta.

dat's our 1st big family activity in 2007. Main ujan kat zoo.

Kecekalan Maryam, mampukah kita menjadi secekal dia?

2007-01-01T15:12:00.000+08:00

Salah satu amalan yang harus dilakukan oleh ibu-ibu mengandung ialah mengamalkan membaca Surah Maryam. But for me, tak puas kalau sekadar membaca-buta saja. Kenapa kita dituntut membaca surah ni ketika mengandung?

Dan bacakanlah (wahai Muhammad) di dalam kitab Al Quran ini perihal Maryam, tatkala ia memencilkan diri dari keluarganya di sebuah tempat sebelah timur (timur Baitul-Maqdis). Surah Maryam, Ayat ke-16.

Kisah Maryam, ibu kepada Nabi Isa a.s. yang megandung dan melahirkan Nabi Isa tanpa bantuan sesiapa, tanpa keluh-kesah, dan melalui saat sakit bersalin sendirian. Itulah iktibar yang patut kita ambil. Tapi... dalam hati sentiasa terdetik, tidak akan aku mampu menjadi secekal dia, namun kita sentiasa berharap pada Tuhan, agar kita ditabahkan hati dan dikuatkan iman ketika sakit bersalin nanti...

Maryam binti Imran menurut Al-Quran adalah seorang wanita yang solehah dan kuat beribadat. Maryam telah didatangi Jibrail a.s. yang menyamar sebagai seorang lelaki yang sempurna bentuk kejadiannya dan mengatakan padanya:

Ia berkata: "Sesungguhnya aku pesuruh Tuhanmu, untuk menyebabkan kamu dikurniakan seorang anak yang suci" Surah Maryam, Ayat ke-19.

Maryam terkejut dengan kata-kata Jibrail itu dan bertanya kepadanya bagaimana dia hendak mengandung, sedangkan dia belum pernah disentuh oleh mana-mana lelaki dan dia bukanlah seorang perempuan yang jahat. Jibrail menjawab:

Ia menjawab: "Demikianlah keadaannya tak usahlah dihairankan, Tuhanmu berfirman 'Hal itu mudah bagiKu, dan Kami hendak menjadikan pemberian anak itu sebagai satu tanda (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Kami) untuk umat manusia, dan sebagai satu rahmat dari Kami, dan hal itu adalah satu perkara yang telah ditetapkan berlakunya'" Surah Maryam, Ayat ke-21.

Ketika Maryam hamil, dia telah memencilkan dirinya. Orang-orang lain memikirkan dia sedang sibuk beribadat, dan tiada siapa yang tahu Maryam mengandung. Maryam melalui hari-hari kehamilannya seorang diri di tempat yang jauh. Tibalah suatu hari Maryam terasa sakit, dia hendak melahirkan. dalam kesakitan itu Maryam bersandar di sebuah pohon tamar (kurma). Surah Maryam, Ayat ke 24-26.

Maka kesakitan itu memaksanya pergi (bersandar) ke pangkal sebatang pohon tamar dan dia (Maryam) berkata "Alangkah baiknya kalau aku mati sebelum ini dan jadilah aku sesuatu yang dilupakan orang dan tidak bererti" Surah Maryam, Ayat ke-23.

Lalu ia diseru "Janganlah kamu bersedih hati, sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah menjadikan anak sungai di bawahmu. Dan gegarkanlah pangkal pohon kurma itu ke arahmu, nescaya pohon itu akan mengugurkan buah tamar yang masak kepadamu. Maka makan, minum dan bertenang hatilah kamu. Jika kamu melihat seorang manusia, maka katakanlah: ‘Sesungguhnya aku telah bernazar berpuasa untuk Tuhan Ar-Rahman , maka aku tidak akan berbicara dengan seorang manusia pun pada hari ini.'"

Bayangkan kalau kita dalam situasi Maryam, melahirkan seorang diri tanpa sesiap menyambut anaknya, di bawah sebatang pohon tamar, yang hanya ada air sungai untuk membersihkan dirinya selepas melahirkan dan hanya makan tamar untuk mendatangkan tenaga bersalin dan berjalan pulang ke perkampungannya, dengan Nabi Isa a.s. dalam dakapannya. Dan apabila dia sampai di kalangan orang-orangnya, Maryam dicemuh melakukan zina, kerana melahirkan anak secara tiba-tiba. Tetapi Maryam yang telah diseru oleh Allah untuk membisu, taat kepada suruhan itu dan membisu seribu bahasa. Tetapi dengan kuasa Allah swt, Nabi Isa yang masih bayi itu menjawab tuduhan dan tohmahan terhadap ibunya, bahawa ibunya adalah seorang yang suci, dan dia dilahirkan sebagai rahmat dan tanda kekuasaan Allah dan beliau diberikan Kitab Injil dan dijadikan seorang nabi.

Cekalnya Maryam... mampukah aku menjadi secekal dia?

Sumber rujukan :: Tafsir Pimpinan Ar-Rahman kepada Pengertian Al-Quran

Depression during pregnancy: Is it hormonal?

2006-12-30T11:57:00.001+08:00

Article from iVillage.com. Found it VERY useful.
Depression is one of the most common psychiatric disorders. Lifetime prevalence rates for major depression for adults are 5.8 percent, although the prevalence rates for women are about 8 percent. Depression postpartum is a well-recognized phenomenon. However, depression during pregnancy is less well understood.
Major depression is classified under the mood disorders in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV). It is defined as the occurrence of depressed moods or loss of interest or pleasure in activities, along with at least four other symptoms during the same two week period. These symptoms may include disturbances in appetite, weight, sleep, motor activity, energy, concentration or the presence of suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness or guilt. An episode of major depression can be categorized as severe, moderate or mild according to the degree to which the affected person's symptoms interfere with social and occupational functioning, including feeding, clothing and maintaining personal hygiene.
Depressive symptoms are usually of less intensity and duration than diagnosable depression. The boundary between diagnosable depression and depressive symptoms is sometimes unclear.
Prevalence estimates of depression during pregnancy varies between 4 and 7.6 percent. The incidence of prenatal depression seems to be increased in the first trimester, suggesting that this is a time of maximum vulnerability to depression. However, depressive symptoms occur in 8 to 38 percent of pregnant women.
It is common to get "the blues" from time to time. Sadness is a normal part of life. Pregnancy has been depicted in the media as a time when women bloom and get rosy complexions. In my experience, both personally and professionally, this is often far from the truth. Pregnancy is a life-altering event and a prelude to one of life's largest and most intense undertakings. Women can be overwhelmed with the spectrum of physical changes taking place and the psychological adaptation necessary to accommodate pending lifestyle changes.
Clients frequently share thoughts with me such as "I feel as if my body has been invaded" or "I can barely take care of myself; how can I take care of a baby?" Fear and trepidation walk hand in hand with joy and anticipation.
Women need an extraordinary amount of support from partners, friends and family during pregnancy, as well as several months postpartum. If there are other coincidental issues such as financial instability or marital or family discord, job dissatisfaction or maternal or family health concerns, this "pile-up" of stressors can induce a chronic state of sadness and hopelessness known as clinical depression.
Counseling, as well as medication, have been shown to be very effective in lessening depression and reducing the incidence of postpartum depression. There are several tools that are helpful in determining if this state of mind necessitates a consultation with a primary care provider or a mental health professional.
If you answer "yes" to more than two of the following questions, you may be suffering from clinical depression:
1. Much of the time, do you feel...
* sad? yes
* lethargic?
* pessimistic?
* hopeless?
* worthless?
* helpless?
2. Much of the time, do you...
* have difficulty making decisions?
* have trouble concentrating? yes
* have memory problems?
3. Lately, have you...
* lost interest in things that used to give you pleasure? yes
* had problems at work or in school?
* had problems with your family or friends?
* isolated yourself from others, or wanted to be isolated? yes
4. Lately, have you...
* felt low energy? yes
* felt restless and irritable? yes
* had trouble falling asleep, staying asleep or getting up in the morning? yes
* lost your appetite -- or gained weight? yes
* been bothered by persistent headaches, stomach aches or back aches? yes
* been bothered by muscle or joint pains? yes
5. Lately, have you...
* been drinking more alcohol than normal?
* been taking more mood-altering drugs than you used to?
* engaged in risky behavior, such as not wearing a seat belt or
* crossing streets without looking?
6. Lately, have you been thinking about...
* death? yes
* hurting yourself?
* your funeral? yes
* killing yourself?

If you are uncertain about your state of mind, I would seek the opinion of your obstetric care provider who could direct you to some counselling resources in your area.

Curry Puff.. Meehoon Goreng...

2006-12-27T04:53:00.000+08:00

woke up at 4.15 am desperately wanting curry puffs. Lay awake for quite a while trying to brush off the images of curry puff. *sigh*

i ended up cooking meehoon goreng [since i can't eat keropok lekor without sauce] for myself, and now i'm eating it at 5 in the morning.

hmm...

Kidz around the world

2006-12-26T12:54:00.000+08:00

Posted this in my other blog. Since she's someone's daughter too, i think it ought to be here as well. I almost cried hearing this girl singing the 'i really miss you' part. pity her, pity the world. stupid american government.

34 weeks... 6 weeks to go!

2006-12-26T08:42:00.000+08:00

believe me, 6 weeks is a long long wait when u're pregnant.

but ...
Soon there'll be not much time for myself again.
Soon sleepless nights will begin again.
Soon it'll be 4 of us, no more 3.
Soon we'll hafta start once again bringing one extra bag everytime we go out.
Soon Jazz will be harder to handle, as she might become jealous or furious with d coming of new person bugging her place.
Soon the house could no longer play loud music/tv throughout the day, instead it'll be replaced with cries and laughter of one more little one.
Soon we'll be parents of two and Jazz is a big sister.
Soon there'll be two sizes of pampers to buy (eventho Jazz only wears pampers when sleeping at nite).

Life is changing, soon. Are we prepared?

Nyaris! Check Up 24th December 2006

2006-12-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

Nyaris apa? Nyaris ke ward lagi!!

Somebody for sure is dying to say 'Serves you right!' to me. In fact he did so many times tadi. n mother kept on saying 'why is it your body so weak than mine?' hmmm...

Wat did i do? Membantai keropok lekor, is it a sin? Makan Nasik goreng, pun tak boleh ke? In fact everyone ate the nasik goreng yesterday. What what what??? What did i do sampai i puke 3 times yesterday throwing all the things in my stomach out? What did i consume till i had diarrhoea and got dehydrated for i-dunno-how-many-hundred-times in this pregnancy?

I am no fortune-teller, or Raven who can see the future. how would i know that wat i consume would later lead to dehydration, again? Cus i only took decent food. how would i know keropok lekor would be harmful? This is pregnancy we're talking about. It's unpredictable, things could go twist and turn in my stomach in a blink of an eye. So... is it really my fault that i hafta go to n fro to the hospital for like a hundred times during this pregnancy?? Compared to Jazz's pregnancy, this one is 100 times troublesome. Which, to me, i dunno about others, will make this particular baby even more special.

I am a strong believer that 'Penyakit Penghapus Dosa'. I know i am no perfect woman of God, but i haf faith. so maybe... being as naughty as i am, God luvs me so much that He gives me all this sickness, to wash my sins away. for as long as i remember, Hospitals and Clinics are my favourite hang out places.

So.... am i reaaaalllyyy to blame, 100%?

Ouch! My Hands hurt!

2006-12-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

Carpal TUnnel Syndrome.

getting it again, i guess! sux, the pain sux. it feels like numbing across my hands, especially after waking up sleeping on my side. my blood vessels are swelling thus it's 'crushing' each other. some article says this is common towards the end of pregnancy. wutever it is, it sux. i could barely do nething much, even opening a bottle of 100 plus is a fuss. typing makes it sore, but bareable. the sucky thing is i can't do my ironing while the bajus are piling up like crazy again!! aaaa!! tensionnya!!

Today i'm 33 weeks and 3 days into my pregnancy. Hmm... nice number. last nite got kenduri at Along's for tahlil and for praying the safety of rombongan pengantin lelaki ke Pahang today, her son. i'm not going to Pahang, gila? hehe. mom and my whole family's going cept syamin, who jest got fever yesterday. demam abis SPM. citer dah menyimpang. sebenarnya nak citer, masa kenduri semalam, many of my experienced aunties and uncles kecoh, 'Ni dah nak beranak budak ni!' konon my perut turunlah, my face dah swell macam dah nak bersalin lah, eeee bikin cuak betul semua orang. my mom dok sengih-sengih, sukalah tu nak dapat cucu baru. katanya tunggu mama balik dari Pahang baru beranak. Apa diorang ni ingat aku suka ke beranak awal-awal ni. baru 33 weeks oi!!!

Physchologically, i was affected by all those comments last nite. terasa macam my opnening was effacing last nite. it hurts! dunnolah dah efface ke belum, Sunday ni next check up, kita tunggu dan lihat. berjalan bukan macam Happy Feet dah, dah macam tortoise. slow giler sebab my ari-ari area is soooo uncomfortable. hmm... diorang punya pasal la ni kecoh-kecoh semalam. eeee geramnya aku...!!

What a pleasant dream...

2006-12-20T09:22:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was another tiring day for a bulger like me :op~. Mom had no choice but to ask me to come to d boutique and help her mind it cuss 1/2 of our staffs had to mind another promotion lot. So i had my usual backache last nite, susah nak berjalan and very very tired. After a few times waking up due to my backpain and going to the loo, i finally fell into a deep slumber nearly morning.

So i had this dream... it was defnitely in colours, cus i could remember every details. I recalled i was just finished with the 'bersalin' [labour] battle, and i delivered my baby girl with normal method. I remember feeling relaxed, then my baby was given to my embrace by a nurse. the rest of the room was dark, there were only lights on my baby's face, i could see her very clearly. i was about to breastfeed her. She looks almost like Jazzy when she was jest borned, with chubby cheeks, small mouth thin lips, her face was pinkishly fair, small sepet Abah's eyes and my thick hair, just like Jazz. She was very calm, not crying and sipped her milk patiently. then the dream drifted into another dream which i couldn't really recall what. and btw, i couldn't recognize which hospital was it, not az-zahrah or putrajaya, i just can't recognize where.

I dreamt of Jazz before she was born too. back then, i could also see her face. and yes she looked exactly like she was in the dream once she was birthed. my mom also tend to dream of all three of us before she gave birth. any other mothers dream of their babies before they were born?

It may be was just a dream, but a very pleasant one :o))