*sigh*

I guess not every pregnancy will get'perfect'. Jazz was almost... until she had to be birthed by C-Section method... now... Khayra... having complications already.

Owh... I'm calling her Khayra already, it's been confirmed she's a girl. Friday afternoon after the 'show' thingy, me n abah go seek the O&G specialist after being referred by a normal MO, the MO didn't dare to diagnose the problem, cus she said it wasn't a 'show', it's sumthing else.

So... after a long disturbing wait (no appointment, waddya expect) i get to see Dr. Khamsiah again (specialist in Az Zahrah, she was also the one who did my abortion/DNC for 2nd baby). 1st she asked what happened, i told her d details, i've been having show for 3 times, she asked of the colors and details, so i told her exactly what i knew. and then she decides to do an ultrasound, baby looks ok, heartbeat fine, weight, not too bad 1.28 kg, and.. it'sa girl, crystal clear. thus confirmed the name Khayra Qaysara, not Jazree Shaquille. the ultrasound shows a perfect placement for baby's head and placentae, so... she checked where she should be checking u know-lah where. it's perfect too. no luka/fibroids/scratches there, and the diagnosis is, the bleeding is coming from behind the placentae.

Minor Abruptio Placentae, the case is called.

if it's Major Abruptio, chances for baby to stay alive is quite little. but in my case my placentae is jest a bit torn, dat is causing the bleeding. reasons unknown, there's many factors dat could lead to it. when i did a reseach on it it's a rare case. i'm suppose to be on bed rest, no turun naik tangga, no heavy lifting, no standing too long, REST. OMG. i'm d kinda who can't stood still.

some books/articles suggests patience like me to be admitted to the hospital, but Dr. Khamsiah said, i jest need 3 shots, THREE PAINFUL HORMONE SHOTS. one to seal the bleeding, 2 to mature baby's lungs in case of early/premature labour. two shots on the same day, one right after the checking, one more at 9.00 pm dat nite and one last one the next morning at 9 am. took the first shot - IM Proluton. okla... not too bad. can still walk to pasar tani and buy some poultry and meat for cooking, hafto cook light simple meals from now on since i couldn't stand too long. then that nite, when in for the 2nd shot - IM DEXA and took it with only 3 times selawat. OWH DEAR GOD. it was soooo painful. i never had painful shots before. i couldn't walk properly after taking the shot. very hard to fine a good position to even sit or lie down. and kept on thinking of the shot i hafta take d next day. Recited Surah Maryam to ease off my fears. and the next day we all hadta woke up early as i definitely couldn't take breakfast or go anywhere after the shot. 9 am, given the 3rd shot. this time, i couldn't stop reciting Ayat Kursi, to distract my pain away. the nurse was a bit 'softer' to me this time as she knows this is my 3rd shot in 24 hours. urghh... went back home to sleep.

as we're to expect labour anytime soon now, we went shopping for Khayra's stuffs after resting dat evening. yes i know i shouldn't be walking much, but Khayra needs clothes and napkins. also her toileteries and preparations for the hospital. during Jazz's time i was working so i did my shopping bit by bit, but now i hafta rely on abah alone, so we bought one shot yesterday. lega, everything's ready for Khayra to arrive. jest dat now abah hafta prepare Jazz's old crib and stroller, bersihkan balik. yeah... at 7 months plus we're already expecting baby to come out. i'm quite worried but.. i need to be patient.

dat's my share of Khayra's complication. i hope i dun scare anyone who's planning to get pregnant. we mothers hafto be strong and pray a lot to God, that our baby will be safe and sound, until she/he grows up to become your precious child who rocks the world.