Scary scary day...

yesterday was d scariest day in the whole event of my current pregnancy so far.

in the afternoon i was sitting at my computer desk for quite a long period, then when i got up, my backside was all wet, and i really mean wet.

i thought my water leaked, and got worried until nite. but i wasn't feeling any sharp pain, and there's no more leaking towards nite, so i got confused and i dunno whether i should go to the doctor or not. made a phone calls to my mom, mother in law, my cuzin who is a lecturer-nurse, but they're not sure of it either. last call made to Az Zahrah where i usually have my routine check-ups, after a few q&a a doctor said i must go seek a doctor (or better still gynae) n check.

and so we went, i was already in tears, because i read in the internet if my water leak now at 23-24 weeks, chances for baby to survive is little and if they do survive, there's a big chance the baby would not be normal. it scared me (later on i found out it's a bad move to search on d net when u dunno what exactly is happening).

arriving at the doctor i was admitted straight to emergency section, a doctor did an annoying test where she hadta insert sum kinda metal instrument in me, it looks like sumthing u use to insert an IUCD but it's metal (for those who had gone through that will know). She said she couldn't see any leakage but she's not certain as they Medical Center didn't haf any litmus paper to verify the pH of my vagina (haiyer, litmus paper osso dun haf... go take at my science lab at skool la, they haf a lot). but she said there's much discharge coming out and dat could be the reason why i felt wet. she gave me a weird medicine to be inserted (again *sigh*) nightly, just for precautions so dat less bacteria could go into the amniotic fluid and also cure the discharge. she told me to wear pad and watch out for more signs of leakage.

since d doctor wasn't certain i was still worried. but since i haf a presentation today i tried to stay calm and focus on my Web Design throughout d nite before going to sleep. when i wake up this morning, 1st thing i did was checking the leakage, nope, no leakage but a lot of discharge. so the doctor's 2nd conclusion was right, i'm having quite a lot of discharge and with time, i feels wet. *phewh* u can't imagine how LEGA i feel!! it was so scary, and the fear of losing my baby again did come to my mind.

today i haf no choice but to go to school, i'm not taking d bus today unless i hafto. i'm trying to get dad to send me. i'm so scared to even walk fast again.