Depression during pregnancy: Is it hormonal?

Article from iVillage.com. Found it VERY useful.
Depression is one of the most common psychiatric disorders. Lifetime prevalence rates for major depression for adults are 5.8 percent, although the prevalence rates for women are about 8 percent. Depression postpartum is a well-recognized phenomenon. However, depression during pregnancy is less well understood.
Major depression is classified under the mood disorders in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV). It is defined as the occurrence of depressed moods or loss of interest or pleasure in activities, along with at least four other symptoms during the same two week period. These symptoms may include disturbances in appetite, weight, sleep, motor activity, energy, concentration or the presence of suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness or guilt. An episode of major depression can be categorized as severe, moderate or mild according to the degree to which the affected person's symptoms interfere with social and occupational functioning, including feeding, clothing and maintaining personal hygiene.
Depressive symptoms are usually of less intensity and duration than diagnosable depression. The boundary between diagnosable depression and depressive symptoms is sometimes unclear.
Prevalence estimates of depression during pregnancy varies between 4 and 7.6 percent. The incidence of prenatal depression seems to be increased in the first trimester, suggesting that this is a time of maximum vulnerability to depression. However, depressive symptoms occur in 8 to 38 percent of pregnant women.
It is common to get "the blues" from time to time. Sadness is a normal part of life. Pregnancy has been depicted in the media as a time when women bloom and get rosy complexions. In my experience, both personally and professionally, this is often far from the truth. Pregnancy is a life-altering event and a prelude to one of life's largest and most intense undertakings. Women can be overwhelmed with the spectrum of physical changes taking place and the psychological adaptation necessary to accommodate pending lifestyle changes.
Clients frequently share thoughts with me such as "I feel as if my body has been invaded" or "I can barely take care of myself; how can I take care of a baby?" Fear and trepidation walk hand in hand with joy and anticipation.
Women need an extraordinary amount of support from partners, friends and family during pregnancy, as well as several months postpartum. If there are other coincidental issues such as financial instability or marital or family discord, job dissatisfaction or maternal or family health concerns, this "pile-up" of stressors can induce a chronic state of sadness and hopelessness known as clinical depression.
Counseling, as well as medication, have been shown to be very effective in lessening depression and reducing the incidence of postpartum depression. There are several tools that are helpful in determining if this state of mind necessitates a consultation with a primary care provider or a mental health professional.
If you answer "yes" to more than two of the following questions, you may be suffering from clinical depression:
1. Much of the time, do you feel...
* sad? yes
* lethargic?
* pessimistic?
* hopeless?
* worthless?
* helpless?
2. Much of the time, do you...
* have difficulty making decisions?
* have trouble concentrating? yes
* have memory problems?
3. Lately, have you...
* lost interest in things that used to give you pleasure? yes
* had problems at work or in school?
* had problems with your family or friends?
* isolated yourself from others, or wanted to be isolated? yes
4. Lately, have you...
* felt low energy? yes
* felt restless and irritable? yes
* had trouble falling asleep, staying asleep or getting up in the morning? yes
* lost your appetite -- or gained weight? yes
* been bothered by persistent headaches, stomach aches or back aches? yes
* been bothered by muscle or joint pains? yes
5. Lately, have you...
* been drinking more alcohol than normal?
* been taking more mood-altering drugs than you used to?
* engaged in risky behavior, such as not wearing a seat belt or
* crossing streets without looking?
6. Lately, have you been thinking about...
* death? yes
* hurting yourself?
* your funeral? yes
* killing yourself?

If you are uncertain about your state of mind, I would seek the opinion of your obstetric care provider who could direct you to some counselling resources in your area.

Curry Puff.. Meehoon Goreng...

woke up at 4.15 am desperately wanting curry puffs. Lay awake for quite a while trying to brush off the images of curry puff. *sigh*

i ended up cooking meehoon goreng [since i can't eat keropok lekor without sauce] for myself, and now i'm eating it at 5 in the morning.

hmm...

Kidz around the world

Posted this in my other blog. Since she's someone's daughter too, i think it ought to be here as well. I almost cried hearing this girl singing the 'i really miss you' part. pity her, pity the world. stupid american government.

34 weeks... 6 weeks to go!

believe me, 6 weeks is a long long wait when u're pregnant.

but ...
Soon there'll be not much time for myself again.
Soon sleepless nights will begin again.
Soon it'll be 4 of us, no more 3.
Soon we'll hafta start once again bringing one extra bag everytime we go out.
Soon Jazz will be harder to handle, as she might become jealous or furious with d coming of new person bugging her place.
Soon the house could no longer play loud music/tv throughout the day, instead it'll be replaced with cries and laughter of one more little one.
Soon we'll be parents of two and Jazz is a big sister.
Soon there'll be two sizes of pampers to buy (eventho Jazz only wears pampers when sleeping at nite).

Life is changing, soon. Are we prepared?

Nyaris! Check Up 24th December 2006

Nyaris apa? Nyaris ke ward lagi!!

Somebody for sure is dying to say 'Serves you right!' to me. In fact he did so many times tadi. n mother kept on saying 'why is it your body so weak than mine?' hmmm...

Wat did i do? Membantai keropok lekor, is it a sin? Makan Nasik goreng, pun tak boleh ke? In fact everyone ate the nasik goreng yesterday. What what what??? What did i do sampai i puke 3 times yesterday throwing all the things in my stomach out? What did i consume till i had diarrhoea and got dehydrated for i-dunno-how-many-hundred-times in this pregnancy?

I am no fortune-teller, or Raven who can see the future. how would i know that wat i consume would later lead to dehydration, again? Cus i only took decent food. how would i know keropok lekor would be harmful? This is pregnancy we're talking about. It's unpredictable, things could go twist and turn in my stomach in a blink of an eye. So... is it really my fault that i hafta go to n fro to the hospital for like a hundred times during this pregnancy?? Compared to Jazz's pregnancy, this one is 100 times troublesome. Which, to me, i dunno about others, will make this particular baby even more special.

I am a strong believer that 'Penyakit Penghapus Dosa'. I know i am no perfect woman of God, but i haf faith. so maybe... being as naughty as i am, God luvs me so much that He gives me all this sickness, to wash my sins away. for as long as i remember, Hospitals and Clinics are my favourite hang out places.

So.... am i reaaaalllyyy to blame, 100%?

Ouch! My Hands hurt!

Carpal TUnnel Syndrome.

getting it again, i guess! sux, the pain sux. it feels like numbing across my hands, especially after waking up sleeping on my side. my blood vessels are swelling thus it's 'crushing' each other. some article says this is common towards the end of pregnancy. wutever it is, it sux. i could barely do nething much, even opening a bottle of 100 plus is a fuss. typing makes it sore, but bareable. the sucky thing is i can't do my ironing while the bajus are piling up like crazy again!! aaaa!! tensionnya!!

Today i'm 33 weeks and 3 days into my pregnancy. Hmm... nice number. last nite got kenduri at Along's for tahlil and for praying the safety of rombongan pengantin lelaki ke Pahang today, her son. i'm not going to Pahang, gila? hehe. mom and my whole family's going cept syamin, who jest got fever yesterday. demam abis SPM. citer dah menyimpang. sebenarnya nak citer, masa kenduri semalam, many of my experienced aunties and uncles kecoh, 'Ni dah nak beranak budak ni!' konon my perut turunlah, my face dah swell macam dah nak bersalin lah, eeee bikin cuak betul semua orang. my mom dok sengih-sengih, sukalah tu nak dapat cucu baru. katanya tunggu mama balik dari Pahang baru beranak. Apa diorang ni ingat aku suka ke beranak awal-awal ni. baru 33 weeks oi!!!

Physchologically, i was affected by all those comments last nite. terasa macam my opnening was effacing last nite. it hurts! dunnolah dah efface ke belum, Sunday ni next check up, kita tunggu dan lihat. berjalan bukan macam Happy Feet dah, dah macam tortoise. slow giler sebab my ari-ari area is soooo uncomfortable. hmm... diorang punya pasal la ni kecoh-kecoh semalam. eeee geramnya aku...!!

What a pleasant dream...

Yesterday was another tiring day for a bulger like me :op~. Mom had no choice but to ask me to come to d boutique and help her mind it cuss 1/2 of our staffs had to mind another promotion lot. So i had my usual backache last nite, susah nak berjalan and very very tired. After a few times waking up due to my backpain and going to the loo, i finally fell into a deep slumber nearly morning.

So i had this dream... it was defnitely in colours, cus i could remember every details. I recalled i was just finished with the 'bersalin' [labour] battle, and i delivered my baby girl with normal method. I remember feeling relaxed, then my baby was given to my embrace by a nurse. the rest of the room was dark, there were only lights on my baby's face, i could see her very clearly. i was about to breastfeed her. She looks almost like Jazzy when she was jest borned, with chubby cheeks, small mouth thin lips, her face was pinkishly fair, small sepet Abah's eyes and my thick hair, just like Jazz. She was very calm, not crying and sipped her milk patiently. then the dream drifted into another dream which i couldn't really recall what. and btw, i couldn't recognize which hospital was it, not az-zahrah or putrajaya, i just can't recognize where.

I dreamt of Jazz before she was born too. back then, i could also see her face. and yes she looked exactly like she was in the dream once she was birthed. my mom also tend to dream of all three of us before she gave birth. any other mothers dream of their babies before they were born?

It may be was just a dream, but a very pleasant one :o))

Penangan Berjalan Kaki

Since me n Jazz dah terperap kat umah ni agak lama [for me it's damn long], so i decided to bwk Jazz jalan-jalan gi Alamanda semalam, along with Mein n Ateem. Ingat nak naik bas ke Alamanda, tapi usually busses dun stop at the direction towards Alamanda from my house, it usually stops at the opposite direction and go around the world [hehe around Putrajaya sbnrnya, tapi lembs nak mampos, jauh dia pusing2]. So me n Mein decided okla, kita jalan kaki slow-slow and stop kat bus stand to rehat kejap.

Budak2 dua orang tu jalan 5 kali lagi laju dari Umi yang terkedek-kedek ni. Happy Feet kan, sebijik. passers-by agaknya dalam hati berkata-kata 'eee mak buyung ni dah sarat macam ni ada hati nak berjalan-jalan lagi'. tataulah, ke aku yang terasa sendiri ni hehe.

Alamanda from my house bukan jauh pun...!!! tak cayer tanya Achik n Has, dekat nak mampos. dulu taderhal ulang-alik gi Alamanda, in fact kalau ikutkan si Mein i think she spend more time there than at home. dia punya 1st house, bukan lagi 2nd. Tapi tulah dengan keadaan physical yang begini, walking to Alamanda becomes a big issue.

Pegi ok, balik ok. Sampai sana bwk the kidz makan McD, gi Carrefour beli vitagen si Jazz dan brg2 kiriman Ucu n Nenek, makan ice cream... balik, naik bas. balik ok lagi, bleh mengiron sambil tgk DVD. then, malam, dah mandi, baring kejap, bisanya mula terasa.

Nak bgn ke toilet pun nak terjerit. Nak berjalan, taking one step is full of agony. Sakitnya belakang n kaki tak terkata. Area ari-ari pun pedih semacam je. Abah pulak kebetulan balik lambat, sebelum tu Jazz dah jadik mangsa kepenatan Umi. kesian Jazz kena marah teruk, sebab dia tak berenti merengek bila terbgn dari tido yang tak puas. Later on dat nite I had a word with myself tanak marah Jazz or Khayra teruk-teruk and pray to God to save em from any pain and to increase my patience with my kids. Tulah orang kata rehat kat umah nak jugak berjalan. Tengok dah kelam kabut satu umah jadiknya.

Jadik mak seriously bukan senang. susahnya nak control perasaan 'amarah' tu...! kadang2 bila duduk sorang-sorang pikir balik, kenapa kita mesti marah-marah dekat anak-anak kecik. diorang bukan paham pun. kalaupun paham diorang belum cukup matang nak pikir, kita yang matang ni pulak terbawak-bawak perasaan tu. Susah kan? especially orang yang memang sedia baran like myself. Yang makin sayunya, when both of us finally calmed down, I bathed her, and ask her does she forgive me for hitting her, though she was still sobbing, she nods her head hard. Budak-budak, cepat forgive and forget. Throughout the nite, I tried my best to be very very soft with her. But i was still very furious with myself sampai terbgn pukul 4 pagi and takleh tido balik mengenangkan penangan yang sampai ke peha anak semalam.

Hari ni she acts as if i never did anything to her. Dia bgn dgn cerianya, mandi sendiri, pakai baju sendiri, mintak susu macam biasa, tgk tv and gelak-gelak mcm biasa. Amazing how kids can heal their pain so fast. Kalau kita? oklah kalau myself, my merajuk could go on for days. i think Jazz is a lot tougher than I am, inside. She's going be a great girl. May God bless her and save her from any kind of bad circumstances. Amin.

Uncomfortable Restless Days

Tido susah, tak tido pening.
Buat keje letih, tak wat keje bosan.
Surfing sakit pinggang, tak surfing lagila bosan.

Susah jugak duk umah ni.

Latest name :: Khayra Qaszryna. Final kononnya. kita tgk sampai bila ke-final-an itu :op~

Gamba anak-anak orang

hehe... masa untuk mencurik gamba... anak sendiri lom lahir, nak letak gamba jazz da melambak-lambak kat blog satu lagi, so letak la gambar anak anak orang hahaha...

Ann Ngasri and baby Abdul Warits DOB: 27 November 2006
[gambar curik kat Hot.Fm]

Mohd Rifqi Naufal baby of Fique d Ziggy DOB: 8 December 2006
[gambar curik kat blog adik Fique, Sharill]

*sigh* orang dah bersalin... seronoknya. especially si Ann Ngasri, her due date is wayyy later than mine, 14 february, dah beranak dah. ni kes terlebih berlakon la ni. aktif sangat. yang Fique nye lewat sikit, Baby Rifqi kena tahan ward dengarnya. takpelah asalkan baby sihat dah sekarang, maknye pun sihat.

betulla... dah dua kali mengandung, bulan bulan terakhir tu bulan bulan restless. time passes so slowly and risau memanjng. subconscious mind pun cannot be at ease. isk isk isk.... saborjelee....

**alamak agaknya adik Fique tak share gamba anak sedara dia hehe nantilah kalo Fique dah kembali sihat mintak kat dia but meanwhile, it can viewed at Sharill's blog, here.

Check Up 06 December 2006 ~ Breech pulak la balik!!

Khayra oh Khayra... anak-anak umi & abah memang semuanya anak-anak bertuah.

yang kakaknya begitu... yang adiknya begini...

Umi check up lagi arini. abah siap amik cuti sebab pagi umi gi berurut dengan sedara abah [pangkat makcik] yang baru datang dari Sandakan visit anak dia kat sini. petang after Jumaat gi Az-Zahrah.

results of urine test for my infection [ala yang sampai kena warded tu kan] are out. nama bacteria dia gila familiar, e.coli [ada nama panjang maleh nak ingat] familiar kan??? bukan tu bakteria taun ke?? ala masa amik bio dulu ada nama bakteria ni, but i cannot remember wat. Dr Kham said this bacteria is very the nasty, tu pasalla my temperature naik sampai 39 degrees malam tu and had contractions. in some cases, the mangsa could even go into labour!! syukur Alhamdulillah doctor sempat bagi ubat tahan contraction and antibiotics malam tu, kalau tak agaknya umi dengan abah kenalah berulang alik menjenguk Khayra di dalam balang yang tak best itu - incubator. Nauzubillah!

time for ultrasound! hmm... ni berita yang mengejutkan. Khayra dengan bestnya telah memusingkan dirinya sendiri ke atas, BREECH position. SONGSANG in Malay. YES. Allah hai... Khayra ni active terlebih [umi buat baby movement chart] sampai dia berjaya berpusing semula ke atas. tapi Dr Kham kata jangan risau lagi, sebab masih ada plenty of space for her to move down again, kalau 36 weeks nanti dia tak pusing2 jugak, masa tu bleh risau, and we might hafto turn the baby down, Dr Kham kata dia leh buat, hmm ok. lega sikit bila dengar dia cakap camtu. tapi tulah dalam hati risau jugak. doa jelah ...

nama Khayra ni sebenarnya belum confirm lagi yang belakang dia. Khayra yang depan je da confirm, belakang dia ada terlampau byk option, Qistina, Qaysara la, Qashryna la, yang latest Aryanna. itu umi la tu yang came out with it, i kinda like d idea having all our girls having bunyik bunyik Ri-Anna kat belakang tu cus it's kinda the combination of mine and abah's name. ejaan lain takpe, bunyi ada. Jazzmeen Adreanna and Khayra Aryanna... tapi abah belum menyatakan persetujuannya lagi sebab dia nak nama Khayra Qashryna. mari kita tgk saper yang kenaaaaa...!! :op~~

but this is a funny thing. Jazz, upon hearing the name Aryanna, she says it as 'Hariyanna' suka suka dia je tambah 'H' depan. pastu when i was discussing with her the name, she was singing 'Selamat Hariyanna, Aidilfitri Mulia'.

BOLEH TAK? aduss....!!

tulah, dah kata dah. Anak-anak umi dengan abah bertuah semuanya *sigh*

Major Hormonal Issue

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Malam tu dapat briyani ni, abah jemput lepas keje gi warta semata-mata nak mentekedarah briyani. banyak gila makan, habis sepinggan!! selalu nasik separuh ni tak, full plate. dengan dua piring popadem and sebijik air kelapa. hahhahhahah!!!! thanks abah. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Last nite was a weird nite. and i had my 1st BAD craving for this pregnancy.

i couldn't sleep. actually i should be able to sleep because i went out half d day [refer to bInx::head burstin' out blog] so i was so very tired.

2.30 am... i woke up. twisting myself here and there. nope couldn't twitch my eye, and was feeling a bit wary. 3.00 am went blogging and surfing, 3.50 try to get back to sleep. nope. cannot. abah woke up for football match. then the craving starts.

i wanted nasik briyani mamak warta at 4.00 am in d morning. i can even taste the ayam madu on my toungue and it made me drool.

i myself felt this is getting very ridiculous. so trying to comfort myself, and thinking maybe i'm craving because i am very hungy, i went frying some keropok lekor. habis sepinggan. tak jugak. nak briyani jugak. iskkkk!!!

went in for bed again. i woke Jazz up to sleep beside me. kesian dia, tgh sedap-sedap tido umi kacau. but she didn't even cry, she woke up and climbed d bed. and things getting worst, i started crying. FOR NO REASON!!!! aaaaa!!!

abah came in asking if i really want the briyani. i said yes, and i really want the warta one. not Insaf's, not briyani Afghanistan behind warta, i want the one in front of warta. abah said ok, we try go tomorrow or later.

i tried very very hard to go to sleep holding my daughter's hand and with tears still running. i didn't realize wat time i finally fell asleep. then 8.30 am in d morning, i was already up.

here i am. with my bengkak eyes, and still feeling a bit weird and still wanting dat briyani. this is getting so so funny. i am feeling, very, very, very, tired!!!

Videos for Expecting Mothers

preggy people... here's a useful link, there are lots of videos here for you to watch in order to better understand your pregnancy. i recommend it cus i found it useful.

here goes [click].

Home Sweet Home.. At last!!!

Been hospitalized for three days since the 28th of Nov. Nuthing much to say now. trying to enjoy the comfort of my own house.

Update

Chronology Masuk Spital.

28th Nov
Pagi - Bgn tido badan lesu gila. took temperature. 37.3. ok lagi.
Tgh Hari - Dah takleh bgn, terbaring and seram sejuk. took temperature, dah naik 38.1
Petang - Dari tghari selubung dalam selimut je tak bgn2, took temperature, 38.3. Maghrib abah balik ajak gi Az Zahrah.
Malam - Kat Az Zahrah terus gi emergency. termometer Az Zahrah kata 39 degrees, wah, advance betul termometer diorang. Doctor terus bagi PCM 500 there and then sebab nak turunkan temperature, bahaya untuk baby. Diorang call Dr. Khamsiah (my O&G specialist). Sementara Dr. Khamsiah datang Dr. Zaharah run ultrasound. Ada contraction! uh-oh. Ultrasound baby ok, and nicely positioned.
Dr. Khamsiah call suruh tahan ward. Allah haii.. duduk ward lagi... bosan! Dekat ward diorang buatlaa segala test, CTG reactive buat takdek plak contraction lagi, tekan2 perut, pastu Dr. Khamsiah kata infection punya symptom byk. tahan satu malam at least and diorang bagi injection tahan contraction. seboleh boleh tanak beranak sekarang sebab baby kecik lagi.

29th Nov Urine test suggests ketosis (dehydration) and infection. tahan ward lagi. contraction da tader.
Tak larat dah duduk spital mahal ni, mintak transfer Hospital Putrajaya. Dr. Khamsiah wrote a refer letter and we all checked out, terus ke Hospital Putrajaya. Test lagi macam macam... kena interview macam nak mintak keje dgn Dr. Tan, very young lady doctor, but proffesional enuff. mula mula kata nak discharge takyah tahan. tetiba dia panggil balik diorang nak observe at least for one night. hmmpphh.. dok spital lagi.
eventho spital kerajaan, routine check diorang lagi byk dari swasta. jest dat bilik share la 4 orang, alah kalau dok sengsorang karang lagi bosan and scary. dah ok dah spital ni, tak macam 3 tahun dulu (Jazz's case). tapi tidolah kat mana mana hospital, mahal ke murah, malam sure takleh tido. lagipun kat Hospital Putrajaya nurse dia kejap kejap datang amik my BP and baby's heart beat.

30th Nov.
pagi2 lagi nurses da buat bising nak kemas katil sebab sat lagi doctor nak wat round. kol 7 lebih 1st round by Dr. Tan, 8 by a senior Doctor yang sgt kerek (normalla, kata senior). diorang decide i could be discharged today at 2pm. YEAY!

kesimpulannya :: Khayra ni baby stress kot, hehe.

*sigh*

I guess not every pregnancy will get'perfect'. Jazz was almost... until she had to be birthed by C-Section method... now... Khayra... having complications already.

Owh... I'm calling her Khayra already, it's been confirmed she's a girl. Friday afternoon after the 'show' thingy, me n abah go seek the O&G specialist after being referred by a normal MO, the MO didn't dare to diagnose the problem, cus she said it wasn't a 'show', it's sumthing else.

So... after a long disturbing wait (no appointment, waddya expect) i get to see Dr. Khamsiah again (specialist in Az Zahrah, she was also the one who did my abortion/DNC for 2nd baby). 1st she asked what happened, i told her d details, i've been having show for 3 times, she asked of the colors and details, so i told her exactly what i knew. and then she decides to do an ultrasound, baby looks ok, heartbeat fine, weight, not too bad 1.28 kg, and.. it'sa girl, crystal clear. thus confirmed the name Khayra Qaysara, not Jazree Shaquille. the ultrasound shows a perfect placement for baby's head and placentae, so... she checked where she should be checking u know-lah where. it's perfect too. no luka/fibroids/scratches there, and the diagnosis is, the bleeding is coming from behind the placentae.

Minor Abruptio Placentae, the case is called.

if it's Major Abruptio, chances for baby to stay alive is quite little. but in my case my placentae is jest a bit torn, dat is causing the bleeding. reasons unknown, there's many factors dat could lead to it. when i did a reseach on it it's a rare case. i'm suppose to be on bed rest, no turun naik tangga, no heavy lifting, no standing too long, REST. OMG. i'm d kinda who can't stood still.

some books/articles suggests patience like me to be admitted to the hospital, but Dr. Khamsiah said, i jest need 3 shots, THREE PAINFUL HORMONE SHOTS. one to seal the bleeding, 2 to mature baby's lungs in case of early/premature labour. two shots on the same day, one right after the checking, one more at 9.00 pm dat nite and one last one the next morning at 9 am. took the first shot - IM Proluton. okla... not too bad. can still walk to pasar tani and buy some poultry and meat for cooking, hafto cook light simple meals from now on since i couldn't stand too long. then that nite, when in for the 2nd shot - IM DEXA and took it with only 3 times selawat. OWH DEAR GOD. it was soooo painful. i never had painful shots before. i couldn't walk properly after taking the shot. very hard to fine a good position to even sit or lie down. and kept on thinking of the shot i hafta take d next day. Recited Surah Maryam to ease off my fears. and the next day we all hadta woke up early as i definitely couldn't take breakfast or go anywhere after the shot. 9 am, given the 3rd shot. this time, i couldn't stop reciting Ayat Kursi, to distract my pain away. the nurse was a bit 'softer' to me this time as she knows this is my 3rd shot in 24 hours. urghh... went back home to sleep.

as we're to expect labour anytime soon now, we went shopping for Khayra's stuffs after resting dat evening. yes i know i shouldn't be walking much, but Khayra needs clothes and napkins. also her toileteries and preparations for the hospital. during Jazz's time i was working so i did my shopping bit by bit, but now i hafta rely on abah alone, so we bought one shot yesterday. lega, everything's ready for Khayra to arrive. jest dat now abah hafta prepare Jazz's old crib and stroller, bersihkan balik. yeah... at 7 months plus we're already expecting baby to come out. i'm quite worried but.. i need to be patient.

dat's my share of Khayra's complication. i hope i dun scare anyone who's planning to get pregnant. we mothers hafto be strong and pray a lot to God, that our baby will be safe and sound, until she/he grows up to become your precious child who rocks the world.

Been having show....

hmm...

I dunno how to feel. i had this problem before with Jazz, but not this early.

For 3 days I've been having 'shows'. Twice pinkish and the latest dark red/brown, this morning. I could also feel baby's head is way down there already. My next appointment with care provider is a week away. I'm not sure of wat to do now. Told mom, mom said watch out for leakage or any other sign of labour.

Labour?! So early!!

I'm only 30 weeks pregnant. batu 7 bulan seminggu ++. it's too early for baby to get ready to come out. baby be patient! u will get to see the world soon, but get urself ready when it's time.... it's early, still. duk situ dendiam dulu...

Waddling... Struggling...

3rd trimester... a week has gone.

Nowadays, I can't 'walk' anymore, i 'waddle'. Walking like a penguin, like Jazz said.

I also haf some powerful Braxton-Hicks contractions... whoa felt like a real contraction especially last nite. If i walk a lot during the day, nite, prepare!!!

My weight is quite heavy now. and baby seems to be quite large like how Jazz used to be. please i dun want any surgery this time. today i'll start reading Surah Maryam EVERYDAY. must must must. no matter how bz!!!

Went to Angah's last weekend for Raya, Angah who used to be a head nurse in Hospital Seremban said 'Eh, this is a boy's shape la, not girl' haiya i'm so confused already. Boy ke girl ni???? iskkk.... two times pregnancy also like this, never know boy or girl.

My favourite drink now is Iced Milo, a very very pekat one. Self-made. orang lain buat tak sedap. 4 sudu besar milo, one teaspoon Milkmaid creamer, half a glass Dutch Lady Fresh Milk, and lots of ice. yummmyyyyyy!! And favourite food now is BETIK. i could finish one huge one in a day. good for my tummy which is always having a hard time in d toilet.

Dat's after a week in the 3rd Trimester....

3rd trimester...

here comes the last trimester of my pregnancy!

berselera betul ummi makan sekarang. asyik menyumbat tuna sandwich dalam mulut. so the opposite of my earlier pregnancy days.

Chimoot very very active. dah start susah nak tido, furthermore ummi selalu tido lambat sebab wat assignment, dah kul 3-4 tu mana nak tido sgt lagi. pusing pusing pun dah susah. normal la ni... Jazz dulu pun camtu gak.

How time flies.... Chimoot's coming out already. ummi pun dah nak graduate... wow it's gonna be very hectic these two months!

Check up 01 November 2006

Chimmoot dah semangat dah...!!

now i hafta quit worrying bout Chimmoot being so ciput, she's actually big and healthy now. Ummi naik 4 kg after raya! huiyoo ummi better watch your sugar intake ya ummi, very naughty ummi eat kuih tart pagi petang siang malam, now i gain weight too fast already. Extremist betulla ummi ni.

the syringe got me twice tonight. first for blood test, second for ATT. mann the ATT injection hurts till now! kejap lagi kena tuam sikit sebab merah. Oedema got a bit already, mana taknya ummi dok bantai santan santan raya aritu, rendang la, mee kari laa, lontong la... nenek la ni tah apa mimpi dia masak santan santan tahun ni biasa dia masak laksa, tahun ni takdak laksa pun.

baby looks very well... kepala baby dah position kat bawah! wahhh... awal betul baby take position ni. air ketuban cukup, uri pun normal... alhamdulillah. everything going well, syukur pada Allah. Ummi kena rajin2 baca Surah Maryam lepas ni, dah nak masuk 7 bulan dah ni!!!

*smiles*

My Weird Tastebuds!

I have a thing bout spicy stuffs now.

after abah went to werk, i felt a weird longing, longing for chillies.

So i went to d kitchen, blended some dried and fresh chillies, cut some onions and a wee-bit of garlic, made a little air asam jawa, and cooked sambal tumis. semata-mata sambal tumis. jap lagi leh makan dengan nasik impit yang ada lebih semalam.

throughout this pregnancy i haf been crazy bout spicy stuffs. but the problem is, now dat i am 27 weeks pregnant, my bump is already big and it's normal to haf some minor heartburn. but when i continously eat spicy stuffs, the heartburn becomes so damn iritating. so sekarang nak ikut yang mana, selera ke iritation?

hai.. entahlah... nak pi bantai sambal dah sat lagi, pagi pagi buta ni.

Here she is...

look at her pointed chin, mahal tu :op~ hehe

Most Prolly... another SHE!

We had detailed scanning yesterday!

Everything looks fine, jari tangan, kaki cukup. no mouth clamping, nose is fine, heartbeat good, brain system looks normal, kidney available so is the pundi kencing, growth looks good a bit minus a few days but still on track... yang cannot be seen is only the gun :op~

doctor tried to search for the gun, shook her a little, nahh... the gun's not there. so not coming to 100% conclusion yet but Chimoot is most prolly adds another girlie in our house! hehe if true, sian abah tader geng. 3 vs 1 now. hehe... and ummi'll gets more assistants in d kitchen later, and baju kat umah takyah beli, baju Sis Jazz banyak hehe. owh she'll get baju baru definitely, like i dunno d father. berjalan sikit beli baju anak. almost every week!

belum dapat post her pix here yet, cus my scanner dah doomed, waiting for abah to scan it. so i'll update later. but she looks so cute in the pic, her face was so clear! she got almost pointed chin and muka bujur sirih :o)) Syukur Alhamdulillah everything's normal with her. her expected date is still early February 2007.

next check up would be a week after raya, 1st of November. ummi most prolly kena amik darah sampai sekarang tak test lagi. but since everything's fine nuthing much to worry! :o))))

this entry goes to bInxz :: Head Burstin' Out blog too.

Scary scary day...

yesterday was d scariest day in the whole event of my current pregnancy so far.

in the afternoon i was sitting at my computer desk for quite a long period, then when i got up, my backside was all wet, and i really mean wet.

i thought my water leaked, and got worried until nite. but i wasn't feeling any sharp pain, and there's no more leaking towards nite, so i got confused and i dunno whether i should go to the doctor or not. made a phone calls to my mom, mother in law, my cuzin who is a lecturer-nurse, but they're not sure of it either. last call made to Az Zahrah where i usually have my routine check-ups, after a few q&a a doctor said i must go seek a doctor (or better still gynae) n check.

and so we went, i was already in tears, because i read in the internet if my water leak now at 23-24 weeks, chances for baby to survive is little and if they do survive, there's a big chance the baby would not be normal. it scared me (later on i found out it's a bad move to search on d net when u dunno what exactly is happening).

arriving at the doctor i was admitted straight to emergency section, a doctor did an annoying test where she hadta insert sum kinda metal instrument in me, it looks like sumthing u use to insert an IUCD but it's metal (for those who had gone through that will know). She said she couldn't see any leakage but she's not certain as they Medical Center didn't haf any litmus paper to verify the pH of my vagina (haiyer, litmus paper osso dun haf... go take at my science lab at skool la, they haf a lot). but she said there's much discharge coming out and dat could be the reason why i felt wet. she gave me a weird medicine to be inserted (again *sigh*) nightly, just for precautions so dat less bacteria could go into the amniotic fluid and also cure the discharge. she told me to wear pad and watch out for more signs of leakage.

since d doctor wasn't certain i was still worried. but since i haf a presentation today i tried to stay calm and focus on my Web Design throughout d nite before going to sleep. when i wake up this morning, 1st thing i did was checking the leakage, nope, no leakage but a lot of discharge. so the doctor's 2nd conclusion was right, i'm having quite a lot of discharge and with time, i feels wet. *phewh* u can't imagine how LEGA i feel!! it was so scary, and the fear of losing my baby again did come to my mind.

today i haf no choice but to go to school, i'm not taking d bus today unless i hafto. i'm trying to get dad to send me. i'm so scared to even walk fast again.

After 23 weeks...

today i enter my 24th week of pregnancy, in completion of this week 7 days later, i'll begin my journey into my 3rd trimester!

Chimmoot is very very active, kicking everyday. i'll notice when he wakes up, he'll move around as if there's a football field inside my womb :o). Although his size isn't as big as his sister, I think he's in a good health. My fastings are okay too, i dun eat much when berbuka, but i drink a lot! i do haf fears sumtimes of dehydration or lack of air ketuban, but often when i fell worried, Chimmoot will start kicking like he wanna tell, 'Ummi, I'm fine, really!' so my fear subside.

Next week I'm scheduled for a detail scanning, owh I can't wait! cus there's a big chance for us to know Chimmoot's gender. i dunno, i really feel the urgency to know this time, unlike Jazz, we didn't exactly know until she was born.

I thank God for a smooth pregnancy up until now, even smoother than Jazz's time. with the haze and heat, my conditions are generally fine. i dun haf terrible asthma, just that slight dehydration problem during the earlier days. Alhamdulillah... and i hope this scenario stays up until Chimmot's birthday.. :o))

here's iVillage Daily Calendar writings on baby's development for today...
Size Your baby weighs a little over a pound and is about 8 1/2 inches long -- the size of a banana.
Development Your baby's skin becomes less translucent as pigment is deposited, and it looks wrinkly because her body is making her skin more quickly than it makes the fat to pad underneath it. Your baby's unique hand- and footprints are forming.

Chimmoot's 5th Month Check Up... 24th September 2006

It was puasa day one and i had check up!

Chimmot dah 21 weeks inside Ummi's womb, and getting very very active, moving almost all the time. masa scan pun dia show off hehe... tapi still Chimmoot tanak tunjuk dia boy ke girl. Memang sajer je nak kasik Ummi n Abah tunggu kan? doctor scheduled ummi for detailed scanning on the 19th, this scanning we could see how Chimmot's bones and other organs' growth, whether it's growing well or not, and we might see the gender too. 19th!!! and ummi suppose to check darah, tapi sebab puasa doctor takut ummi pensan plak hehe, so ummi can come later for blood screening.

Letih sikit puasa kali ni, jalan kat Pasar Ramadhan pun dah cukup meletihkan. hmm.. baru masuk anak kedua. takpelah, sabarjelah. dugaaan.....

Happy Ramadhan to everyone, and to all pregnant mothers, i hope u can enjot your fasting month!

Check up 28 August 2006

There he is... showing off his big smile to u guys hehe...

check up diagnosis ::
Ummi punya berat makin turun - prolly because of the travelling
Size Chimmoot ok... kecik sikit takpe doktor kata.
Chimmoot is one healthy baby.
UTI Ummi dah ok.
Ummi kena banyak minum air.

All in all we're both fine... Jazz pun ok although masih selsema sikit balik dari Sandakan aritu, she's makin makin makinnn manja lately. Everyday tak bleh miss kiss adik dia kat perut Ummi :o) good to see my kids getting along well.

Lagi lagi dehydration... bosan kan topic nih?

Ummi dehydrated lagi... today along with protein in my urine, UTI! haiyer...

tak dapek den nak kecek apo laie dah... gi doktor sebab sweating teruk pagi tadi je, tup tup byk la plak masalahnya. ngadu pasal gusi berdarah everytime tido, doktor kata tu rare case tapi memang ada orang camtu. abis antibiotics ni kena gi check urine lagi. hmm... ulang alik spital je le...

abah nye pun tak bih lagi darah tinggi. tadi result darah keluar, masih agak tinggi. hmm... saborjele...

KLCC... tempat lepak ummi and Chimmoot haha (Happy Birthday Atuk!)

when i read back all my entries, byknyeee pasal Ummi dok pegi KLCC. memang i like it there sebab dekat dengan opis abah (senang nak balik, free ride home hehe) and ada Pizza Bun sedap kat cold storage. plus I am hantu movie, TGV is d best place to watch movies for me (again, free ride home :op~~). nanti besar kalau Chimmoot and Jazzmeen antu movie Ummi takleh kata apalah!

Semalam pun gi KLCC after having B'day (papa) Lunch+Dinner kat Victoria Station Ampang, kenyang Chimmoot makan Steak, atuk d b'day boy had the best meal, rainbow trout, uhhh best gilerrrr... nyesal tak order cam atuk. next time makan situ must order dat (bilerlah agaknya ye... last time makan situ was like a year and the half ago, b'day Ummi last year). i'll be posting pix at binxtots later... if got time. since i can't stay up late, i hafto make full use of my day hours to complete final projects. Chimmoot duduk situ dendiam ye, Ummi byk keje. Sis Jazz pun enjot yesterday, with Ateem n Mein. Nenek plak shopping bagai nak giler tapi last last tak beli mende pun. letih Ummi n Abah ikut nenek round KLCC. ok back to werk...

Immunity sux

my immune system has gone terribly down, especially during last weekend. had flu, sore throat, fever, coughing, all in one complete package. all i did was stayed in bed so dat i get better before class days beginning tuesday. today i feel a bit ok, but i still got blocked nose and coughing.

orang kata mengandung kalau teruk-teruk gini dapat babyboy... Chimmoot belum kasik lagi nampak dia boy ke girl. tunggujelah ye.

Slim but tall... Chimmoot...

jest came back from Chimmoot's second checkup. seronok ummi dapat tgk Chimmoot. i almost cried, seeing my baby kicking, very emotional. all limbs appeared, Chimmoot looks so tall, moving very active, but Chimmoot is still smaller than his age... *sigh*

is God angry with ummi? i don't know... balik rumah ummi terus makan one Aunty Anne's Choc Mint pretzel (singgah alamanda beli) and one pizza bun i bought in KLCC after b'fast ngan kawan2 at Sri Paandi tadi. Chimmoot... bila nak get to normal weight... ummi risau!

Abah pun buat ummi risau. aritu dah 2 hari MC sebab high blood, tadi check lagi, dapat lagi dua hari, masih high blood. Kak Zan (Sis Jazz's nanny) kata makan buah belimbing, terus pegi beli tadi kat alamanda. by Friday kalau blood abah tak turun, abah kena tahan ward, aduh apa ni..! *sigh* entahlah...

Kicking!

seronoknya!! ummi letih letih balik from KLCC (gi watch Pirattes of the Caribbean and abah dengkili suruh ummi jalan kaki gi opis dia) ummi relax in front of tv, tengok katun, suddenly, POP! Chimmoot dah start tendang!!! wahh advance Chimmoot ni, baru 3 months plus dah pandai tendang tendang, agaknya it was the whole of him moving kot, sebab agak besar tendangan itu.

dia marah kot kat ummi sebab tgk cerita geli-geli ada Kraken-sotong besar :op~~

When Chimmoot Starts moving...

Blogger was down yesterday, nak update earlier tak dapat.

Sunday afternoon, when i was resting from doing chores, lying on my side and pressed my lower body to a pillow, i felt Chimmoot moved! ahh bundle of JOY!

it was quite a moment, and i could feel Chimmoot's size by then, almost as big as 3/4 of my palm, which makes me soo happy cus Chimmoot ain't so small nemore! after all Chimmoot turns 3 months the next day :o)). this event made me can't wait to find names for my darling newcomer, and i already got one name fixed. told abah bout it, abah seems to agree, but only the 2nd namelah, the 1st name haven't got yet. and somehow, i am so positive dat Chimmoot is a boy, i dunno why i just haf a strong strong feeling bout it. but yeah it's very very early to tell, even the next ultrasound we might not be able to know Chimmoot's sex yet.

my registration for final semester is tomorrow... still figuring out what to wear, to tell or not to tell my lecturers or let em find out emselves... hmm.... a thought to consider for the rest of d day!

p/s:: Sunday Eve abah bawak makan Ikan Siakap 3 rasa kat Juara Tom Yam Kg Baru, yum yummmmm!!!

God I am So Pregnant!

it's 5.38 am Sunday morning and I'm very much awake!!

It's gonna be 3 months of pregnancy soo, first trimester is gonna end, and I am sooo pregnant :op~. All d symptoms are kicking in, and good news, i'm beginning to eat more! haha

Nausea is still there but thanks to Maxalon prescripted by my doctor, i could curb my morning sickness a bit. But the hardest thing to do is sleeping! although i easily fell asleep, but i easily wakes up too. and before, whenever i wake up i could sleep again, but today i woke up, try to get back to sleep, instead, i went to d kitchen and seek for biscuits hahah. so hungry. then try to get back to sleep, cannot already, i end up typing this entry.

my two lumps are beginning to hurt. aiyoh so tender already, so i think Chimmoot is gonna haf a lotta milk to drink later :o) i can't wait for my next appointment, but i already switched to Doktor Pakar instead of normal O&G doctor because of my previous dehydration. i doubt dat i still dehydrate, cus i think i've been eating well. i stopped takng MMT too, cus i could cope with my gastritis. i remember during Jazz's time i had terrible asthma, but i don't seem to haf it yet for this pregnancy. dunno if it will occur later.

i dunno if there are any other mothers reading my entries, but if there are, i'd like to hear your experiences too, especially for 1st time mothers. according to my webstat meters this blog is visited by many people from various countries so... yeah let's share some info!

Marilah Memasak!

the problem with me is, i cannot duduk diam, but i hate ironing baju, pening paler ah panas pastu sakit belakang kalo dah start iron banyak2, orang keje menangguh kan memang macamtu. so today, altho i haf like 3 bakuls of bajus to be ironed, i cook instead, muehehheh. i cooked my very own home-made SoyMilk and made my own jeruk kedondong!! hahaha makanan orang mengandung, cik abang semua jangan marah, mak cik nak citer pasal masak masak arini.

ok... why SoyMilk? soy milk is a very very very good food for pregnant people got lotsa protein, DHA, a bit of calcium and kalau ikut kata my mom nanti baby putih melepak. Semasa mengandungkan Jazzmeen dulupun I cooked my own SoyMilk, lagi sedap dari beli maklumlah air tangan sendiri and lagipun we can control dia punya manis and pekat ikut suka kita. Kalau beli, kadang tu manis sangatlah, cair sangatlah, kalau beli yang kotak punya lagilah, ada rasa hampas dia sekali, diorang tak tapis! it's good sebab ada fiber tapi... urgh, tak sedap!

Ok para ibu-ibu ataupun sesapa yang ada hati nak cuba sendiri, here i share my method of cooking SoyMilk atau Air Kacang Soya atau Air Soya Bean. tapi perlu diingat, kalau 1st time try, u better get everyone out of the kitchen including your kids and pets, and kalau bleh biar hubby kita pun tkadek kat umah sebab nanti dia bising 'You buat apa ni yang, berkecah satu dapur ni?!' hehe tu pasal i did it while En. Azam yang kuat membebel was at work jest now :op~

1st u buy the Soy Beans :op~ jest now i used about... 1/2 a kilo. bleh dapat dalam 3 jug kecik atau 2 jug besar. Cukuplah untuk kita sorang minum tahan 2-3 hari kalau simpan dalam fridge. other than that we will need daun pandan gula batu, gula biasa and water, tu je. then RENDAM THE BEANS SEMALAMAN. lepas rendam dia akan rupa macam the 1st pic, dah kembang. it's quite normal kalau u found some bubbles and bau dia agak kuat selepas dah rendam tu, so u hafto WASH it 2-3 times then tos kan. bile dah basuh, kita kena BLEND dia WITH A BIT OF WATER. buat la 2-3 kali cus definitely blender tak muat untuk sekali. now comes the tedious part - dah blend, PERAH DENGAN KAIN MUSLIN. kain muslin tu apa? ala siannnya kain muslin pun tatau, kain ni could be a clean COTTON cloth, kalau takdek sangat pi amik napkin anak yang BERSIH or BELUM GUNA (we dun wan anybody to get food poisoning folks). perah ni boleh kalau nak buat 2-3 round, tapi selalunya bila dah abih satu round tu korang sure dah malas punya :op~ kalau 2-3 round dapat banyak lagilah PATI SOYA tu. then, tapis PATI SOYA yang dah diperah tu, MASUKKAN KE DALAM PERIUK dan TAMBAH AIR sehingga dapat kepekatan yang kita nak. Tambah SATU SENDUK GULA + 1/2 PEKET GULA BATU atau sampai dapat manis yang u desire. ADD DAUN PANDAN YANG DIIKAT and JERANG SEHINGGA MENDIDIH. SIAP.

Kedondong Jeruk senang je... mula mula gaul kedondong yang dah dikupas dengan garam, biarkan satu malam. esoknya dia akan keluar air sendiri, gaul dengan gula plak. dah siap. takyah taruk cuka, tak elok awak tu membawak budak, tapi kalau degil jugak nak taruk tarukla sikit. DEGIL.

ok puan puan, sekian resipi kita untuk arini. ada sesapa nak tolong ironkan bajus for me?? :op~~

Dehydration ~ Hospital Alert!

Ummi dehydrated! 'tulah, (abah cakap) sendiri carik pasal dudukla hospital sorang sorang'

nasib baik tak lama. 32 hours je. JE?? itupun dah cukup rimas ummi. dahla doctor tak free memanjang, patutnya dia scan Chimmoot semalam tak jadik, 2nd August baru dapat jenguk Chimmoot lagi. *sigh*...

Arini ummi duduk umah. nak rehat and kemas apa yang patut. and, not to forget, MAKAN apa yang patut, jangan dehydrated lagi!!

Blobby is now.... Chimmoot!

jest came back from my first O&G check up for Blob..opps, Chimmoot!

why Chimmoot? long story-lah, begins with the nickname i call Jazz is sometimes Chippo, because haha, not to offense her or nething cus Jazz is a 'semangat' baby right from inside my womb, sampailah la ni, dah keluar, badan dia dengan tinggi nya chubbynya, macam baby Chippo - Hippo yang Comel hahaha. so it's like a cute way to say she's big haha...

so Chimmoot... why Chimmoot? hmm... jest now when doctor scanned Chimmoot, Chimmoot is a bit smaller in size compared to his/her age in the womb, suppose to be 9 weeks plus, but Chimmoot only sized 8 weeks :o( badan umminya je yang besar, anaknye alahai... mana taknye umminya memanjang muntah makan muntah makan muntah, takder selera and stuffs, manalah si Chimmoot tu nak besar.

Owh i'm worried, cara doctor bertanya macam macam tadi pun nampak sangat concern nya, yelah ummi dah ada kes miscarriage, pastu Jazz pulak masa lahir tak reti reti nak keluar eventho dah induce, so this 3rd one perlu dipantau rapi! adoi ummi peninglah gini, ummi sedih naperlah ummi nausea teruk sangat ni sampai Chimmoot comel sangat. tapi legalah ummi nampak heartbeat Chimmoot bukan main active lagi and Chimmoot dah visible betul compared to last 2 weeks yang sgt susah nak dicarik. aper aperhal ummi syukur, Chimmoot masih ok kat dalam tu and ummi doakan Chimmoot akan besar dengan normal, walaupun tak serapid kakaknya..!

Wutever goes in, goes right out again

looks like Blobby is giving ummi a very very hard time - by not liking EVERYTHING dat ummi feeds him/her. ummi throw out almost after every single meal. but ummi still continues to bloat a bit, tho my weight's goin down.

can't wait to end my 1st trimester... soon!

two ultrasounds, baby so shy!

owh i am sooo bz...!! helping with the babies' nenek n atuk with their boutique and MLM stuff. dat's y no updates. i get too tired to blog when i come back home from werk (still hafto cook...)

we had 2 ultrasounds, and maybe one more this wednesday (the beauty of private hospitals, tak kedekut duit, bayar saja, thank God for abah's ING). both times Blobby so shy, Blobby still very small but the sac is already BIG! and i saw the heartbeat ah what a relieve! my nausea got worst everyday and lately, i vomit everyday, at least once. only yesterday my appetite got a BIT ok. itupun i did throw up in the morning *sigh*.

now dah masuk 9 weeks... hmm... bila nak abis 1st trimester ni, cus i'm a bit cautious this 2nd time. yelah got history of miscarriage, then badan pun tak berapa nak bagus dengan gemuknya dengan fatiguenya dengan nausea teruk, agak risau. thank God i got good support from everyone.

off to work now...

3 years, 3 months, 3 weeks and 3 days old!

hehe today's a nice age-day for Jazz! today ummi tak hantar Jazz oegi umah mama dia (her sitter) cus Ummi punya ammendments untuk Major Project pun dah nak siap, sikit je lagi tinggal and then ummi nak bwk Jazz pegi playground, exercise sikit.

have trouble sleeping this few days. sakit belakang! keep on terbangun malam malam. boleh tahan penagan Blobby ni.yang Jazz pulak tengah2 malam mesti nak bangun tido atas katil peluk Ummi. anak Ummi semua manja belaka!

Baby Uniqueness

sehari suntuk Ummi tido semalam. can't describe how fatigue i was, tapi bila dah tido je pening kepala la pulak.

i can feel dat carrying Blobby differs from carrying Jazz. maybe because of age... metabolism... stamina... maybe. or is it gender difference between babies? too early to tell. with Blobby ummi gets tired more in this earlier stage, with Jazzy ummi did get tired but not until i hadto sleep all day. mentang2 dah lepas presentation on Monday, ummi janji nak kemas umah ngan abah semalam tak buat pun. and ummi is suppose to ammend a bit of my major project, pun tak usik. agaknya Blobby marah ummi asik kurang tido masa buat assignment, dia bantai suruh tido sehari suntuk! :op~

and then with Jazzy dulu, ummi hari hari wanna eat chocs and anything sweet, but Blobby ni dah la kurang selera, tapi bila makan pilih yang pedas, masin, ummi nak beli bun pun sampai asik beli bun ikan bilis. abis manis pun Blobby nak raisin bun je. aritu lepas scan ummi beli chocolate donut tak abis pun. tapi yang bestnya, both of em hantu pisang! hahah. now everyday must haf banana in d kitchen, Jazzy pulak dulu everyday abah hafta buy me roti pisang kat mamak bangi. ahhaha, korang semua memang pandai buli abah!

aha... Blobby dah buat ummi muntah sekali dah. hahah. lepas presentation aritu, maybe i was too tired, i got very dizzy and my nausea takleh tahan dah, muntah juga akhirnya haha. but lepas tu takdek, baru sekali.

Jazzmeen everyday kiss my tummy. i hope dia tak ngamuk lagi kata tanak baby macam dulu-dulu. risau ummi kalau my two kids nanti cannot get along. i dont like dat. my kids must unite!

Finally...

A concerned medical practioner finally confirmed Blobby-Baby's existence in Ummi's womb... today.

Ummi, Abah and Sis Jazz went to Az-Zahrah today, where Ummi had the check-ups and birthed Sis Jazz there, did an Ultrasound and urine test, jeng jeng jeng... Blobby finally made an appearance. Confirmed, 6 six weeks pregnant, but according to doctor, Blobby's due date is 6th of February 2007, unlike the calculations Ummi did in many gears in the net, 5th of February. alah only one day je beza dia.

So today, Ummi finally announce d news to some other people and making this blog public.

Body changes... entah, ok plak kali ni. Abah jelah yang bermasalah, diala yang pening dia la yang loya, dia la perut berangin... hahaha. Ummi ok je, letih je sikit, loya tu ada tapi taklah sampai muntah. and my appetite still kurang, but tadi Ummi masak daging masak kicap, berselera lah pulak. nampaknya Blobby ni macam abahnya jugak la ni, berhantu makan daging kicap.

tinggal lagi satu je lagi subjek baby... tak lama lagi kita boleh rest, masa ummi keje ngan nenek. nenek pun happy je tgk perut ummi yang dah agak besar ni. baru sebulan setengah, perut ummi dah buncit, maklumlah memang dah asalnya buncit sebelum baby duduk dalam tu. masa scan tadi pun Blobby tak nampak sangat, yang besar uri dia.

Alhamdulillah... things are smooth and happiness in the family bertambah-tambah.

Tiresome days...

I really don't wanna blame my pregnancy for anything, for d baby has been very much anticipated. but i'm just gonna let out my feelings here...

I'm so tired... i sleep more nowadays. well according to any pregnancy books/articles dat's normal during 1st trimester...

i feel a bit guilty, i hope i'm not neglecting baby's health, cus it's very early in my pregnancy and i really should be careful. i should sleep accordingly, exercise a little and eat properly. but due to my daily activities, i'm a bit constrained from this, sorry baby... kejap je lagi, ummi dah nak abis sem dah ni, 2-3 hari je lagi. there's too many things ummi need to settle before ummi really jaga u in there. and Sis Jazz is even more demanding these days, not forget abah, who is worst :op~~

i guess d mood swings is kicking in already. i don't get angry much (yet) but i really really haf no mood to do my major project. i suddenly despise my story, drawings and d work i need to do to complete this subject. dah start buat cincai dah ni. urrgghh! i hope mood gets better next sem. prolly this is one way baby is telling me, 'ummi, i am not gonna be an artist/animator, so please quit drawing!!' haha... i don't know :op~~

morning sickness still hasn't come, thank God!! yang muntah aritu abah, adeke, saper yang mengandung ni abah ni? sebuk je nak muntah2 plak. tak pernah2 abah muntah macam tu teruk, eee... ni mesti abah tersampuk pembawakan budak jugak nih. kesian pulak tgk abah, asalkan ummi sendiri tak tahan naik kancil pinjam tu, kereta baru tak sampai2. ni plak abah kena naik everyday to n fro keje. hai... nak wat camana kata nak kereta baru, sabarlah.

6th week of pregnancy... still very early and vulnerable. God save my baby.

Ode to a brand new life

I'm beginning this blog, the very day feel so positive that I am going to embark another journey of... pregnancy.

By today, I am already late by 8 days from my menses, which makes me 35 days pregnant, by menstrual-calculation. by right this is my 5th week on my third pregnancy, 3 years after the birth of my eldest daughter Jazzmeen Adreanna and almost 2 years after my 2nd unborn child.

i am contented, but i'm not making this news and blog public yet, cus it's much too early and like the old folks say 'let it be 2-3 months before you announce it'. right now, only family knows. but of course i will make it public, when i'm ready.

my condition's alright, morning sickness... i can say almost none yet, nausea still could be tolerated and headaches... ah just sleep it off and it will go away eventually. my concern now is my appetite. i'm losing it badly, unlike when it was with Jazz. i haven't been eating much.

it's just 5 weeks tho, no obvious symptoms yet. haven't gone to the doctor yet, except last saturday i wanted to confirm my pregnancy, but ah, he was just a male doctor who's not excited of new lives going to be conceived. he didn't wait long enough to let the 2nd line to appear, although very faint, and normally at that point, a concerned doctor might have done an ultrasound, but he didn't. wrong move to go to him, he might be a good normal physician, but not in women's field. but he prolly had too many kids already to be excited as i am.

i am still very busy with my final project for this 5th semester of mine in LUCT, on fact i had very little sleep last night, half the amount i should be getting. so i would prolly jest sleep early tonite, haf a good rest before buckling up for work work work tomorrow.

so new baby, ummi have got to rest... welcome to this world. Assalamualaikum.